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My Dear Rajesh, 

Today is 31st. December  2020. Time  now is 7.33 p.m. I  will  after writing this blog for you go yo kitchen to do some  tiffin. Noodles  actually.  

The year of the  Pandemic ,the Covid 19 is coming to an end  The antidote vaccine will start arriving by coming year. 

Meanwhile the economics of the  countries have changed, happiness as a factor in life has undergone many changes. 

Personally I  rate this year as one in which ' anxiety has caused misery.  

It has redefined our social interactions  and communications are superficial and like an office document. Not exactly true. 

Truth is veiled. 

India won the second test against Australia. 

Not watching cricket. Have actually moved away from cell. 

A little. 

I  will  write again by night again. 

Missing you my son. 

I made ' Ulundu vada ' exactly as you like them. 

Managed to send to Ranju too. 

A Very Happy New Year 2021 To You Too ,wherever  you  are. 

Affectionately,

Amma. 
 

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My Dear Rajesh,

An important event I have not yet written about us that my office friend Alice John Vallikkad expired on 15th.of Tuesday this month. Funeral at Belawadi church in Mysuru was related live . 

I write the details as known to me. 

It is one of my upsets. 

In detail.

Affect,

Amma. 

My Day Today.

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My Dear Rajesh, 

Today is 09-12-2020.

By the end of this month the year is going to be 2021. 

India won the T20 in Australia 2-1. One day ,I.e.50 overs Australia won 2-1..😀So the Trast series can be 1-1 and 1 tied.😜. 

I have a dental problem running since one week. The bottom row remaining 1 molar teeth is paining. With great trepidity Ranju decided to take ne to a dentist.  Ww got the x ray done and he wants the puss to be removed. 

It is raining here since the storm Nivaar started in Chennai. Second storm Bhuri or Bhuvi ,I don't  remember  the exact name also brought rain all from Karthigai tine. Now the depression formed is bringing another storm abd rain. Effect is felt here. 

So here it is very chill. Imagine me wearing a sweater to bed and under the quilt.  I am wearing your half sleeve sweater. Remember, I  got one for you and Appa ,Oswal brand. Still intact. 

My own sweater back when I was working here about 37 years back is also very fine. So also Ranjini ' a school creme coloured sweater. 

So I have to start now. 

Will write in a day or two.

Affectionately,

Amma. 

 

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My Dear Rajesh,

I have a very important news for you today. 

Today is 2 nd.December 2020. 

My office friend you remember ,Alice?

Her son Mathew was only sone months younger to you. Her second,  was a daughter by name Bernadine  and  they call her Beta. 

Alice was progressively deteriorating in health from last January onwards. 

Her daughter married a German and Alice had sent me photos of their wedding in Germany and later in India. 

So Alice was not having much contact with me in December,January  etc. I thought may be she is busy in getting visa for Beta to go  to Germany  to.join her husband. When I called her somewhere in February ,Alice said she had some lung infection and her voice is affected. Later though I was sending messages and sometimes speaking she deteriorated progressively leading to hospitalisation at JSS,Mysore somewhere in July,August or so. She came home but again ,could not talk and again hospitalisation and after coming back one day, to my repeated enquiries sent me a  picture of her sitting with John ,her husband and a tube to her nose for oxygen  canister. 

But again this November 1 st Alice suffered a stroke  and I don't  know  how far is her stroke debilitating her and she has been admitted to Columbia Asia . Though she was taken home somewhere later on 12 th or so she suffered a seizure . So  they brought her back to Colombia Asia. 

Alice uis  in  coma now and her daughter when I asked in Alice number messaged from her own number which I also am having ,abd informed me that Alice is in oxygen and not in ventilator as that will deprive her off completely from her family if shr goes to ICU. 

So there you are. I was so upset last  Saturday as I just kept some lamps being  Karthikai  Deepam  Day.

Somehow I keep only oil lamps and not candles.  But that day I thought of keeping Alice' s candles, which were her return gift as me and Ranju as we  attended Mathew s wedding at Mysore. 

Her daughter says doctor is saying only sone days but nothing so far. I am anxious. My friend here  is advising me not to ask, as they can.be under stress.

Yes, but today I had queasiness  at  8.15 and thought of checking on Ranju and also this Beta. 

Ranju said she is ok. 

Beta says same condition. 

I have finished my worry. 

Next is the cricket news. Australia beat Indiav3- 2 in ODI. India in Australia.  

I had a very painful ear since Sunday.  

As it is risky to go to.ENT surgeons etc being pandemic period  I took some earlier prescription. But today Ranju took me to her Diabetologist doctor who can have s look. Here it is very cold as the storm that battered Tamil Nadu last week called Nihar caused rains here too and Bengaluru  is very cold and it is not ear infection,  but the neural pain at the joints  of ear and jaw.  

I am.ok today. So don't  worry. 

I never celebrate anything properly after you have gone. Was lighting lamps only near God unlike earlier times of decorating the outlines of the house with deepams.  

 So with lots of affection,

Amma. 

 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Latest news is that in the finals just now finished at about 11 p.m.  it is again Mumbai Indians  who won the IPL final. Very competant Rohit Sharma. 

But not a popular team to South Indian Cricket lovers. 

They beat Delhi Capitals coming to.their maiden finals this 2020 lost by 5 wickets.  

Anyway we have to congratulate the winners na? 

So congratulations Mumbai. 

For information to you..

Affly,

Amma.

 

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My Dear Rajesh 

Since Appa was calling me and Anjali ,the maid Servant wanted to say good bye, I was forced to publish that half finished post, as I did not want the typed matter to get lost. 

So continuing the sane vein, I am explaining the picture message copied for you in the earlier write up. 

1) American election is over and the last President of U.S. a Republican ,Donald Trump lost it. 

Now Joe Biden is the Democratic party elect President. 

One of the major reason could be that the pandemic Covid 19 has caused havoc to economy and deaths and the health system got pressurised. 

Same has happened to every country including India and people will think another one at the Hoverment level will solve the disruptions. 

2) In India too it can happen. I mean the option for another choice. 

3) So the jokular vein in that message was a teasing message about Ex President Trump. 

3) This write up' a message is one that I really liked. 

I am grinding for Idly and adai Rajesh. Today my lunch menu was Keerai milagoottal and your favourite vendakkai  side dish the way you would gave liked.

4) Healthwise Appa has sugar high and control in food habits are getting implemented. 

5) I had yesterday serious pain due to varicose vein pull up though I am regular in taking lemon with a pinch of salt in warm water since years. 

Do not worry my son. I am with you and if ever I wish fir anything it is for you and Ranju to be my children only always. 

6) I am progressively gaining more insight into life and is mostly not losing my equilibrium. 

Affectionately,

With lots of good memories and love,

Amma. 

 

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My Dear Rajesh 

Today is 09-11-2020,and ir is 14byears since we lost you. 

But I  am  going to maje you smile by the funny things in life.

1) Being a cricket fan ,let me give you the game updates

2) Yesterday was the eliminators  play off. That was between Delhi Capitals and Sunrisers Hyderabad.

3) SRH list it,though both Kane Williamson and Jadon Holder were instrumental in getting the play off spot by beating Royal Challengers Bangalore  on 6th. 

4) Usually  if I light the evening lamps in te pooja room( 2 of them) ,whicheverburns brightly, I  will  assume " ok., first lamp brighter than second ,so first batting team wins 

5) But this did not prove true for both the play offs . On 5 th and th 6th the second lamp burned bright .But both Delhi Capitals and RCB lost though they were batting 2 nd. 

6)???😀Why? Gods were laughing at me possibly. May be not batting but bowling they means for final play offs!! Ha!! Ha!!!

6) Yesterday too. Same rule. It was bowling second team DC, that won. 

So the finals between MI and DC. 

This time's  IPL T20 happened due to the pandemic at UAE..Dubai and Abh Dhabi. 

7) M.S.Dhoni who has the sane month July 1981,as you are( you are younger by 19vdays).

is sort of not done so much . 

Affly,

Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Rose's for you. 

Last post on 31 st.October,I could not complete as Appa came to my room and I  did not even sign it. 

I am continuing the news now.

1) Chennai Super Kings is out of the IPL 2020. They fared badly as they continued with the old team which was aging. 

2) Out of 8 teams they are 7 th now.  Rajasthan Royals at 8.

3) King's XI Punjab at 6th and Kolkata Knoght Rides at 5.

4)The finals are played between today the 5th.of November 2020 between Mumbai Indians placed 1 and Delhi Capitals  placed 2nd 

5) Day after tomorrow  on 7th. SRH plays 4 th placed RCB.

6) The winner of today's  match goes straight to final. But the loser gets one more chance as they get again a chance by playing the 3rd.and 4th placed SRHand RCB winner..

7) The format of T20 is like that.

8) I am thinking of you as today is your loss ' thithi' ,the Krishna Pasha, Panchami in Aoippasi, Tamil month. 

9) I have placed new red Roses  over all swamy pictures and from Ranjini ' a garden replanting brought enough Tulasi  to do a Garland for  your favorite  God, Lord Venkateswara.  

10) Stay forever happy wherever you are. Amma wants to join you.

11) On the health front Appa has increased sugar and his unhappiness is probably his destiny as it is my destiny too.

12) I am realizing more and more of the separate qualities of the innate self and Atman and the external and narrow,limited personal manifestation. So the anger in me is gone bu still when the external is dominant I can react. My aim is to just  expunge this external me. 

More may be tomorrow. 

Affly,

Amma.  

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My Dearest Rajesh,

Today is the last day of October 2020,that is 31-10-2020.

Lots of news I have to write.

So I am giving you in a numerical sequence. 

1) That photo is of Mitra, Rajkumar s daughter. She turned 1 year old this 29 th October 2020. 

For convenience sake ,since they are in the U.S( Virginia), and nobody is there the birthday is celebrated as as a hone event ,only photos being sent. 

So you see a child squishing all over ,with a cake with straw berry toppings,Rajkumar said Subhasri only made it. 

2)

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 10-10-2020. A Saturday. 

Though it is a unique day as you can see,ten again ten and twenty twenty, I  do tell you the truth. 

I always want to write to you on 09th.of every month

 I have missed yesterday  not because I forgot the date, but did sleep a bit early. A sort of forgetting only. 

I know you know.

There us rat which has climbed in from the garden of downstairs Reddy mami. Though I have tgd pigeon net there posdibly as I was not here for  20bdays and I noticed the rat's s presence immediately, today only I confirmed. 

The rice on the small flat plate on which I sat Annapoorneswari, the rice was vanishing daily. 

I see a bit  of potato getting bitten.The place for hiding is always the gap between the kitchen storage and the sink wall behind it. 

Recently as the white cement packing was worn out water from.kitchen sink was seeping through the storage unit. 

Got the plumber  to look at it on 7th. . He came kn 8th. Got it done and it is o.k. I did ask him to.fill the little gap between storage and wall to and though he did fill an obvious gap ,still the rice was vanishing. 

Bug today as I wanted to check before I  start watching the CSK vs RCB match in IPL I caught a glimpse of the rat movement. 

I did call Appa and have locked  the back door to the working area from the kitchen as last time the rat just nit to pieces the washing machine  wires and we had to spend Rs 4000/ for repairing it and putting a net under the washing machine  too. 

Now that washing machine  is exchanged and LG washing machine  bought. I don't  want this rat again to.bite it. 

Unfortunately I have only a small glue pad to catch the rat which I  have placed at tgf entrance of thr gap. Hope the problem will be solved

 

😁

Affly,

Amma. 

With lots of love.  

Various flowers.

 My Dear Rajesh,

The various flowers I shot with camera during these difficult times.Have a look.

Affly,

Amma.

Ranjini

 My Dear Rajesh,

Your sister during these lock down periods. As she walked to Sethna ,she reduced. She has lost 17 kgs. 

Affly 

Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 01-10-2020,a Thursday. First let me give you the good news. Chandrashekhar ' s  wife Shilpa gave birth to a baby girl this morning. Cesarean section delivery. And Shilpa had tested positive for Covid 19. 

The baby is now in neo natalward in Brindavan Hospital in Mysuru. Shilpa in Aisha Bibi hospital in Mysuru. Poor BCS is handling things alone as Shilpa ' s  parents are at Mysuru along with her Grandmother. BCS has no help as Bala Mama or Sita Mami can't  come to Mysuru. 

Covid is raging everywhere  in India. 

Anyway baby born is on Fullmoon day and Utharattadhi star. Good  day too. All if us are anxious. 

Now the worst part of news on my personal front is I had serious difference if opinion with Appa and for 20 days( I came back on Tuesday evening) ,stayed with Ranjini

 My action was as Covid was raging and Ranjini is busy and I want to check my financial position. At least a list in case there is an emergency I can decide on action. As Appa would not have allowed taking the deposits to Ranu s house and making excel sheet,  I  just took them one Tuesday.  Ranju can't  taje the laptop and walk as she uses coming here to  reduce weighting fact she has lost lots of weight. 

Also Ranjini is stuck with 2 cats which dhe fed as strays The cat story needs anothervwriting. 

I came on Thursday and came with deposits and Appa just shouted at Ranjini implying she has a plan and she wants the money and Ram has a plan and Ram is looting etc. Ranjini kust got mad( in fact I had made vermicelli sevai and chutney and had come taking all the deposits

That shoutingbdragging Ram s name by Appa was bad. Also asking Ranju who is she etc? She just went home and next day brought Sethna documents and gave Appa that back. 

I took 1343 documents and gave it to Ram too. 

My aim let ne tell you was that Ranju should enjoy her property undisturbed,

They are mature and wed are old and I have transferred title they give ut to rent  and party etc let gem look. Why trouble them with questions? 

Appa cant interfere final matters. K

Covid circumstances have made him narrow minded and more narrow minded indeed. 

Any way I have handed over all my jewels to Ranjini and it can ve used to my serious sickness if needed. 

Appa is looking at every expenditures. Anyway he did bend a little. So I am back. 

Because of the tensions experienced,I did go to an astrologer with Ranju. The Kammanahalli ,Ganapathi temple. Ram a mom usually goes there. The astrologer saidI am.in for a mistake time. Appa,he read like a book and said we both do not match at all. Reading on Nakshatras I do find Revathi and uthram dies nit natch at all. Bith will be at odds. 

So there you are.

I know you love your Appa ,the one who will buy you ' patakkis' every Diwali. While I also know that you know me too. 

I have read a lot and watched how Ram and Ranju live and various other people live and i  think it is my ' dharna' not to abandon him now. As it is this  sense is driving me. 

How are you my son? Who else do I want as children other than you or Ranju? 

So forgive me for any wrongs I have committed. 

Affly,

Amma. 

P.S. I seems to have fell asleep as I typed.  Contnuing now at 5.27 Be with me always.

I am feeling ,I might get this co idx

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My Dear Rajesh, 

09-09-2020,a Wednesday  today. 

Thinking of you. 

Affly,

Amma. 

Some Pictures for you.

 MybDear Rajesh,

Here are some pictures for you. 

Rajkumar,Shubhasri and Mitra.

My favourite Peanuts observation.

The flowers are violet Bougainville  at the front gate.

Affly,

Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 09-08-2020 a Sunday. 

In 3 more months it is going to be 14 years after you are gone from our lives. 

I progress from sheer frustration and anger to tranquility  of late. The serious nature of this endemic and consequences on lives of people all around the world make me pause and reassess our values in lives. 

It is also a biological war unleashed. But I  strongly believe that only goodness and care and honesty triumphs. 

So I  am  hopeful. I am now 72 years and carrying on. Appa is 77 and we are mostly silent since some days. 

Ranjini and Ram too carrying on. Their roof top gardening is at a standstill as no gardner is employed now. The 

Last week Arun messaged. He is now working from home and is in Mysore. 

Chandrashekhar ' a wife Shilpa is expecting. By October end there will be a baby. 

Rajkumar and Shubha has Mitra. 

Raja Mama and Lalitha Nami is carrying on at the senior citizen home Gujan  Paripalana. 

Bala Mama and Seetha Mami at Coimbatore is also carrying on.  

Ramachandran Mama  and  Shobha Mami carrying on at Chennai. 

You too carry on wherever you are. 

No IPL here  Every sports activity is getting affected. 

IPL is planned at UAE next month.  I  think here it might not be manageable due to infrastructure and managing even virtual attendance can be a problem plus India is having the spike high September/ October. 

It is raining here. 

Take care.

Affly,

Amma. 

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Wishing you A Very Happy Birthday  Rajesh.  

31.07.2020 it is. 

Today is Friday and Vara Maha Lakshmi  day too. I gave posted a decoration done by me today praying for the welfare of this humanity. Wherever you are ve Happy. Your Parents and Ranjini ,your sister always misses you. 

With a heartfelt of remembrances fir my dearest son,

Affly, 

Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 09- 07- 2020 a Thursday. 

The photograph displayed is of my father S.Veera Raghavan 
   flanked  by me and Raja Mama and in front Raji chithi and Ramachandran Mama. Possibly Lokur station. Means 1963 onwards some day. 
The family album is being shared by our group Veera Raghavan family. 
Worst news is Corona 19 is waging high in Bengaluru,and Chennai and Coimbatore etc. 
It will be quite sometimes before we may or may not see each other. 
Yesterday  night full it was raining in Bengaluru. 
I am yet to go for my morning walk. 
After taking bath I will walk a bit. Meanwhile as I had net connection I wrote this blog. 
I wanted to put a very blue sky photo for you taken by Ranjini yesterday.  Just now outside my room the atmosphere is fresh and green and not cloudy.  
With lots of Love,
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 28 th.June 2020.
That picture is the kittens( one boy and one girl) which is in Ranjini's garage. The mother cat is not well today. This picture is from ,this morning. 

This cat just is a street cat but delivered in the recycling waste box in Ranjini's garage about 8 weeks back. She is giving milk and feeding cat food to them now. It rests in various places outside Ranjini's house,including over her Reva car. Beautiful eyes. 

This is the good news. 
Otherwise in the Indian and world wide news is only Covid 19 rage. The epidemic is spreading like anything. Indian infection has crossed 5 lakhs. 

The virus mutates and chokes the breathing bags of the lungs. Fear is also contributing to anxiety. 
No schools functioning you know. School final exams or PUC exams not yet held. 
Students and parents are beset with anxiety. 

The world's economic front also has changed. In India the migrant population has gone back to their states from every state they don't belong too. 
Definitely the world is witnessing a social and physchological  change. 

We including me at 72 years has not seen a world war, and minor wars too I have not witnessed. 
Reliable, good relatively reasonable and disciplined middle class,believing in the ultimate and law abiding and friendly people like me are now anxious. 

Not because death will come but death comes with an inexperienced terror. 

I know and feel the pain of the multitudes in this world and believe in the will power of the goodness to triumph over any evil. 
May God bless us do.

I know that you have experienced whatever it was and will tell me " don't be dramatic,Amma. 😁

Be safe wherever you are. 
Affectionately,
Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 09-06-2020,a Tuesday.

That picture loaded is a daily cell click done by me as I walk around this flat in the morning by sometimes 7 a.m or 7.30 a.m. Because of the lockdown due to the Covid 19 I walk alone. Especially in morning times, none with whom I am friendly will be there. Also your Amma now is 72 years. Pretty old. So not many friends. 
Evening sometimes a Malayali friend Ragini will come along. Ragini will be talking in her cell most times and we just walk around. I am o.k. Being Tuesday today Ranju came to lunch.Mullangi sambar and Kothavangai poduthuval. Since last 30 th.we got a Jack fruit I had made a little payasa in that with Kadalai paruppu and green gram split ( moong dal. Jaggery payasam. 
A little weary this life is becoming,but I want to be there as I want to see Ranjini pick her health up and be strong and steady. 
Wherever you are I think you will be knowing what happens around us like divinities. 
What else can I think. 
Be safe where ever you are.
Affectionately,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 17.05.2020. Almost 60 plus days of lockdown due to this Covid virus is over. The centre and state governments are slowly releasing curbs. The total non functioning of big malls, cinema halls ,religious groupings, all continues. It is extremely hot in Bengaluru,but today unexpectedly it rained at 9.30 onwards. It has stopped now.

Very difficult times Rajesh. 
Appa is coping up. Ranjini is coping up and all of us are coping up. Due to non functioning of industries, and other works migrant labourers have gone walking as trains are cancelled. Masses have their own complaints and unsolvable effect is there on the minds of many people deprived of earnings, alienation and fear of an unknown virus. An endemic that turns the fate and economics of the countries of this world. 

To the philosophic it is the lessening of the burden of this earth.
Today there was an encouraged chanting of Vishnu Sahasranama at 6 p.m. Meditation session at 5 p.m. ,at 12 noon and 9 a.m. 
I was making all cooking powders to Ranjini since yesterday like rasam powder, vangibath powder and pepper jeeram and menthia powder.
I miss you. We miss you. 
😭
Wherever you are ,be safe,
Affectionately,
Amma. 

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My dear Rajesh,


Today is ,09-0502020 a Saturday, nearly the end of this week. I want to update the Covid 19 situation in India. India is in the third spike of this desease and so far no respite from spiralling..
Pretty difficult situations
Affjy.
Amma.  

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 08-05-2020 a Friday. 

I am praying for peace.and to overcome fear of the present indefinite situation over the entire world also thinking of you. I am sorry ,you are not there. Appa has become possible to live but thinking on it ,I fell when was he different?

Mistakes in life should be corrected. 
Ranjini is coping up. I sometimes think.if only you were there it would have been different. 
But after all the scenarios where hope is toppled by rigidity, I feel.happy again because life like that baby bird sitting on its minute egg with hopes of hatching, I feel.this Covid won't destroy human spirit. 
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,
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Yesterday before the night was over I wanted to write ,but forgot as I went off to sleep after reading Vishnu Sahasranama Sahasranamam. 
India has crossed 30000/ and odd infections and above 1000/ deaths. This Covid 19 has come to stay. As senior citizens we have to be wary. 
Today is May 1st. 2020. 
One other very good news is that Shilpa, ( Chandrashekhar' s wife) is in the family way. So an addition coming to Veeraraghavan family somewhere in September or May.
Everything coming for good. 
We are doing well. Take care.
Affly,
Amma.
P.S.
That picture is the sky one day.. 

Yes

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My dear Rajesh,

Thinking of you specially today. Today,just now time is 11.53,about midnight on 28 th of April,2020. 
On 26 th of April in 2001 Ranjini got married to Ram. This time because of the corona virus endemic, I forgot her anniversary. Be aise of lockdown difficult to get anything too from shops. We are waiting for this epidemic to subside. 
Babuji Maharaj' s birthday is on 30 th April too. So we are having Satsanghs at 7 and at 6 p.m. too. All sitting at home and doing it. 
Wishing to know how you are ,Rajesh.
Affectionately,
Amma 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 11.04.2020 and it is Saturday .
I am really feel as I have not written to you on 09th. I was thinking and the conditions outside and my own mental state has not made it to the blog.
Of course because of this epidemic called Covid 19 the blog erb version takes time to get loaded. 
Bala Mama had sent a video to Ranjini where a doctor is explaining bathe different coughs and that sort of consoled me. So from yesterday onwards I have overcome my anxiety. Reading about this epidemic, I sort of started getting symptoms though I have no way of getting it. 
A little bit  of  throat irritation  was making me feel anxious. Meanwhile I was unable to tell Ranjini as she had a stomach problem. She went to Speciality hospital and the doctor said it is bladder infection. So more anxiety. She had introduced me as a diversion to word game. You know I love word games. I used to play during Yahoo chat times( now I have forgotten what was it called) word games. 
So 09 th was missed, 10th also was missed and today I was getting ready to walk a bit outside this flat but I thought I have not written to you. 
So there you are hearing my confessions Rajesh.

Have I moved on son? 
I feel always guilty as I miss 09 th.what so ever the reasons.
That sunset picture is of Juhu beach in Mumbai as noone noone goes now cluttering it during this Covid time. The sea is in all sunshine rejuvenating itself.
This Earth is cleansing itself my son. 
There you are,

Affectionately,
Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

I hope you have understood the situation the world is facing due to this endemic. 

We are all being careful. In order to keep the cheer around I have posted as picture a group of ducklings. 
I love ducklings. I also love the duck walk. I hope you remember the ducks in Mysore zoo. 

Be of cheer my son dearest.
Affectionately,
Amma. 

Updates.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Here is the update link.
https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/
This link.gives the position as on date world wide.

Panic that is what everyone feels

Pray for everyone's welfare.
The picture posted by me is the sun with the clouds over this Sethna Power Tower flat,as I walked.

Stay safe wherever you are
Affectionately,
Amma.

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My Dearest Rajesh,

I have been lax in updating you. Yesterday before the disturbed month of March ended, I wanted to update. But the net did not connect.
Today is 01- 04- 2020,April Fool' s Day .But no fooling happening now.

The world is under tremendous pressure as an endemic called Corona Virus 19( as the virus started spreading in 2019 end of December) is wrecking havoc in the lives of the people inhabiting this planet. 

It started from Wuhan province in China and is a mutant from.animal to human. 

The type of decease , it's symptoms I will copy paste it for load for you to know. From February  9 th onwards India started getting it. 

Our control over our mind is very low now as fear rules. Me and Appa are alone here unable to go out. Not that we were going out much. Ranjini,Mami and Ram are at their OMBR house. A general restriction of movement is in existence now. 
We are coming to terms with the drastic situation by constantly meditating, praying, reading Lalitha Sahasranama and Vishnu Sahasranama and bhakthi stotrams. 
The world and individuals are afraid. 
You know the Tsunami effect. The World Trade Center 9/ 11 attack and results. Wars and destructions. The earth is undergoing it's heavy  lightening of  " Dush kriya".

Trying to update you again.
I will now post this .
Affectionately,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

I missed writing yesterday (09-03-2020), not because I did not remember,in fact I remembered I should write to you by night so that I don't miss the date.

But I became too sleepy and slept off. 

So one more habit or compulsion to write on every 9 th to you is gone. 
Let it be. 
So today the 10 th.March 2020 at 11.15 morning I am typing this. As a picture I have pasted for you Ranjini as on yesterday. She went for her Carnatic music first day exam like that.😃.

She is supposed to have done well. 
Did you know about the coronovirus scare around the world?
Cough ,cold,running nose and lung incapacity with breathing trouble originated in Wuhan ,China and spreading around the world now. All are being careful. Ginger wayer, turmeric milk etc hot drinking. 
Extra clean.😄.

Anyway it is a fact a cold does manifest and we are scary.
After sending those two smiles I feel better.
Missing you my dear son. Rajesh, was I goodother to you? I am not well. My hip has started paining. There has been too much differences with Appa now a days. I understand the futility of a life past and I think.it is the Karma balance,he with me who does not love him and me with him who does not in the same vibe. Both are punished. Did you decide to go when life ran in front of you on the fateful day ,and decide why choose to live when it will be a pain,this life? 
So many questions and I want to be at equilibrium. I understand though. I went for Sunday function and it again brought me back to realization of what is this superficiality in life. But physically I am a bit down. Writing to you I have picked myself and previous to that talking to Ranju too I picked myself up. 

Affectionately my son,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

01-03-2020. A Sunday. I went for meditation after a long gap. There was a wedding at Banneer Ghatta Road in Bengaluru,for Mumbai Vijaya and family. The days were18 th and 19 th. Vijaya is Dita Chithi's my mother's first sister's daughter ,3 years younger. You remember, Akhilesh her son and Manjula her daughter. 
Both are married. They came for this wedding direct by flight from.Mumbai and on 20 th came to stay with me. Though  me and Ranjini had taken permission for their visit and stay ,Appa made a ruckus. I feel sensitive about these things Rajesh. Everyone comes once in a way. Everyone' s lives are as tedious. I personally think if possible we must be tolerant. They were 5. Vijaya, Manjula and her husband Mahesh and their son Siddarth. Then Akhilesh. Akhilesh took lunch and went to his friend' s house to stay in the evening.So accomodation exactly was not a problem. Manjula is intelligent enough to Manage and she took the guest room where only one cot is there and laid with Mahesh on the cot,she down with Siddarth. So me and Vijaya in the double cot was ok.
But the boy was horrendous as children are now a days. 

Anyway Appa is behaving very badly with me. 
Previous to the visit of these people Ramachandran Mama had come and Appa hates him. So totally a mess.
I have to keep equilibrium but I also have started feeling that I have to take a step too. 
In conflict,
Your' s affectionately,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

09-02-2020,a Sunday today.
Today is Appa ' s birthday. He is now 77 years-old. 

A bit silent he is today.
I went for Sunday meditation to Banashankari ashram today with Ranjini. 
Ranjini had her mother in law with her who was staying with her since 3 days. 
All aging and getting depressed.For her Shankar and his wife is a worry. 
Today Newzealand has defeated India and claimed the one day series. India had won the T20 series.
In the under 19 world cup India is meeting Bangladesh and match must be going on now. I have not subscribed for any sports channel and do can't watch. 
Also just now reading is my interest.
Both Narayaneeyam and Bhagavad Puranam I am reading simultaneously. 
Ranju might come with Ram to see Appa today.
In the above photograph, you are seeing Mani Periappa' s daughter Jyothi' s first daughter Krithika getting engaged to Gautham at Chennai some (resorts) yesterday. We did not go as all are at US and marriage might be in US.Also not much interaction with Jyothi etc as she too is at US.

More in details later. 
Thinking if you my son.
Affly,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

Thinking of you being February 3 rd. 2020.
India has white washed Newzealand by winning all 5 one dayers.
The country is in turmoil as people have risen against CAA ( Citizen's Amendment Act) passed in.parliament. The populace living in India after 1971 belonging to Muslim majority facing problems.

Cash crunch is there . I find  it difficult to reconcile. 
Anyway winter is giving way to summer.

Affly,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dearest Rajesh,

In continuation of yesterday' s writing, today the 9 th.January of 2020, I am giving you the following updates.
1) Politics has become very selfish and dirty and unrealistic with no ethics.
Children are also very selfish and unrealistic in expectations.
Did I tell you? Rajkumar got a baby girl. He has named her ' Mithra'. Rajkumar' mother in law is there to help. 
Lalitha and Raja Mama continues at  Gujan Paripalana,the senior citizen' s home.
There are more and more people and it seems dangerous in public places.
Perhaps the Kali Yuga will be like this.
I am into reading and TV watching is very less with even news channels being prejudiced and many say bought and partial. Fake news is being spread to create tensions and issues they say.
For a good news let me say that the Indian sports scenario is improving.

More later.
Affly,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

It is now 11.30 on 08-01-2020,a Wednesday.
I attended a violin concert by Kanyakumari,a renowned violinist who has played for M.L.Vasanthakumari. very humble and capable she was. Appa also attended though he did not come along with me.During the concert when Aadisudulu yasoda song was rendered I had tears thinking of you. So also when Baro Krishnayya. Both are by Purandara das. Bhakthi and affection for Krishna is predominant in his compositions.

Today I happen to respond to a message from your I Square IT' s class mate Vasumathi. She did speak about you and Shankar. 

So I thought I will write to you now before going to sleep.
Tomorrow is 9 th January 2020. 

Be at peace wherever you are Rajesh. We all will somehow be together. 

With Total Love,
Affly,
Amma.
P.S.
That picture is Disney Character Pluto.😃

My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

A Happy New Year to you again. That Hanuman photo is sent by Arun in today's Whatsapp message. We scarcely talk nowadays. I can understand him. I feel he need not be burdened in keeping a friendship with me. So during some festivals like this New Year now only a message is being sent.

I reciprocate and type something comforting like when he sent this today , I wrote saying I remember the conversations I had with him as he discussed Ramayana with me long back. My presentation to.him.for his Graha pravesha was Ramayana set written by Ramesh Menon. 
Yesterday along with Ranjini who dat throughout the program.tjough her hearing sensitivity is more now, Prince Rama Varma' s concert was good. So a good  year end. 
A good beginning to this 2020 year will have to be endurance. Rather Imust dsilycount my blessings. No.negstivity in speech should  be there from my side. 

I also went for meditation today being Wednesday. Lots of thoughts but felt fine.
You too be there for us Rajesh.
I read in Youtube that Uthtam.nakshayram which isy star likely to be living about 83 years. So long indeed. I hope I will be patient with people. You all know patience is not my domain.🙄😄

Affly,
Amma.