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My Dear Rajesh,

It is 31-12-2019.
I will be attending the Surabharathi music concert of Prince Rama Varma,belonging to the royal house of Travancore,Kerala.

There is a gulp in my throat as I think of you Rajesh. 
I have come to a stage where mere writing does not tell me what is a loss for us.
I must have been careful. I must have been careful. Both about you being in Bangalore and Ranjini' s health.
All my meditations, reading about health ,do called being a good mother does not make the errors right.
I am trying to be a better person,apologetic ,and trying to take this burden of being limited in my abilities. 
Love you my child,always,

Affly,
Amma.
P.S.
Wishing you a Happy New Year wherever you are.

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My Dear Rajesh,

That picture was of Kukkarahalli lake at Mysore. Today is 19 th December 2019. Soon this year will end too. Time goes on. I am sitting at Surabharathi cultural center and the Dhanur month of music season' has started. I have already attended 2 namasankeertan programs here. 

Now West Indies is touring India. The one day is tied 1-1. 

The country has some unrest due to the creation of an act for ensuring that migrant populations without citizenships here are restrained,as many has false identities and the country is burdened 
More writings later. 
Affly,
Amma.

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09-12-2019,a Monday today. This year also is ending.
I have some news to write.
Will write a bit afterwards as I have difficulty uploading pictures today.
Going to kitchen now to cook as servant will come shortly and work should be over.
Thinking of you
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

09-11-2019. Thirteen years since we lost you.Today I woke up thinking of you. No dreams. I am trying to do away with sleeping dose Niterest. So since 3 days has taken only half of 5 mgs. I am sleeping okay. Day before yesterday headache was there but today no headache. 

At 7 a.m. now I will be sitting in meditation as Master is giving us a distance sitting. So I thought I will write to you here.

Today it is reported the Ayodhya Ram Mandir verdict is going to be out . Let there be peace everywhere.

I will write again. 
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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 09-11-2019.
It is 13 years since we lost you.
I woke up thinking of you. 
Today it is reported in the media that the Ayodhya Ram Mandir dispute will be decided. Let us pray for peace. 
I am sitting in meditation at 7 a.m. as Master is giving a distance sitting .Since 5 th daily at 7 a.m. Today I wrote to you before sitting but somehow it vanished as I made mistakes in uploading I think. Anyway I sat for meditation but could not meditate and so writing this again at 7 25 a.m. to you.
That picture is of Pluto the dog,our favourite Disney Character.
Have a good day Rajesh,wherever you are and know that there will always be this void in our lives .Appa is here and both me and Ranju will always feel responsible that somehow we list you. 
Affectionately,
Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

Some mistake and the Diwali lamp did not get posted in the letter. I have loaded now. But I am writing in black letters as I might make mistake in loading it.

Also I wanted to explain that photo of mine. It is Mysore Malathi and her mother flanking me in front of their house in CFTRI layout. Malathi has built upstairs fully recently. Her son Vimal has finished his research and paper is submitted. Neawhile he is working and joined last 7 th.or so. Every youngster in US only. Her second son Vittal is finishing MBBS this year. Will have to do internship. 

So far for latest updates.

Love you my dearest.

Affectionately

Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 01-11-2019 Kannada Rajyotsava Day. Also the remembrance day for you . Going to be 13 years. Appa has gone to Vaniambadi today too.Ranju came to give me my provisions. She buys for me and I pay her later. Morning I said my prayers and cried as I was reading.

That lamp wishing Happy Diwali is the picture I was sending others last year. Somehow I.like that pink very much.

Fresh news for you is that Rajkumar' s wife Subhasri delivered a baby girl on 29 th. Baby is named Mithra Raj. Rajkumar is continuing in U.S. at Virginia University. His wife is a C.A. Wife' s mother Karpagam has gone there to assist the delivery and looking after the child. 

BCS and Shilpa so far has no children.

The rains which were lashing Bengaluru has stopped now. Since two days no rains. Today it is sunny and blue. I might go for a walk today in the evening.

I am carrying on. Shoulder has started paining. I am definitely looking old. I will post my latest picture now.

Affectionately,

Amma.

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So that is the photo of Ramachandran  ama Shobha mi,kuzhandhai Akshara and handranKrithika and Arun. In Chennai.This Diwali it rained. 
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dearest Rajesh,

As you can make out from the picture posted it is Deepawali today the 27th.of October 2019. Yes,we are missing you. Ranjini and Ram came for lunch. Because of Ranjini' s stomach conditions very normal menu is being prepared now a days. No sweet or Kharam varieties being prepared too. She dies not want it as she says she will tend to eat it. Since I will have at least one flat neighbour who will bring something and I would like to return it , I just made some khova like sweet and a little pokkodam. Actually being Sunday and my front road being dug up for laying pipe supply to some other places around auto rickshaws are asking for exhorbitant rates. Where minimum of Rs.30/ won't come ,they ask double or even Rs.100/. Do I bunked going for meditation though the menu could have been managed by me even if I return by 9.30 in the morning. Anyway power failure was also there. So mullangi sambar,rasam, cucumber poduthuval ,vadas( paruppu vadas) and semia payasam. I made one ginger pachadi too. In this menu rasam and poduthuval Ranjini brought. A quiet lunch. I had taken Ram shirts and pants,and fir Ranju dresses. For Appa also three shirts and one pant which he accepts only after running about it very much.

Did I tell you that Sita Athai passed away on October 7 th? Also because of eco pollusion Pattakki breaking is very less. We are seeing laser likedisplays even in pattakkis.
After your not being here I am not celebrating Deepawali in a big manner. Celebrations changes. In October beginning from 1 St to 4 th I did go to Mysore as Bala and Sita Mami were at Chandrasekhar and Shilpa' s place at Mysore.Shilpa keeps dolls too. Anyway I am.not making as many sweets as Sita Mami. 
I can post one picture of Ramachandra and family at Chennai now .
I have not been able to get it right. Let me see one more letter I will write. 
So my Raheshmy son I wish you A Very Happy Deepawali. Enjoy.
Affectionately,
Amma.

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My Dear Takes,

09-10-2019 ,a Wednesday.This day if you reverse also will be 09- 10-2019. Dasara was on 08th. The news is Appa' s sister Sita at Palghat aged 93 years passed away at 0.45 hours on 7 th  Monday morning. 
Appa went to Palghat for the cremation. She was ailing for sometime. About 15to 20 days too all their sons and Daughters as called to come and see her. That time too Appahad gone and seen  her. 
Ranju had kept kolu this year too. I actually wanted to download kolu pictures to you. Somehow I could not identify it. 
I had gone from 1st .To 4 th.to Mysore where Chandrasekhar and Skills are staying. This time Bala and Sita too had come there. After returning Ranju had called Sarasu ' schildren Ramesh,Ganesha and Chutes families for lunch on the 7 th. the day day Sita went. So that lunch was not done as everyone thought not to make a celebration. 
I am thinking of you my Son,every day. The 13 th.year is coming this year. 
Affectionately,
Amma.  

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My dear Rajesh,

Today in another 9th.August 09- 09-2019.
The photo displayed for you is from the 60th.birthday function of Shekhar' s brother Anand. 

Today I went for that and took lunch there only. It was done at a hall called Trinity Hall near Jalavayu Vihar.

Another sort of not do good news is that Shekhar has been in Speciality Hospital since 10 days. 

One more news is that Visu' s  son Raghu is admitted to ICU as he has dengue fever. Yet another news is that Appa' s eldest sister Sita Athai at Palghat is sort of laid down due to age factors. 93 years.My mother if she was there would also have been 93 years.

Appa might go to Palghat on 11 th.

Thinking of you son.
Affectionately,
Anna.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Amma is writing this letter a bit delayed. Please forgive me for not informing you earlier. My right eye cateract is done on 21 St. August 2019 on a Wednesday by Dr. Sameena Zamindar at her clinic..I was given food etc by Ranjini and  I stayed in Ranju' s house and came to Sethna on a Wednesday I think. She was providing breakfast and lunch and dinner all the days both to Appa and me. Tedious for her. Appa is going 3 days in a week to Vaniambadi. He will leave by morning and come back by night. 

I am alright after surgery. Today second vision test has been done. On 21 St one more test will be done.

Appa' s sugar has increased as he eats outside. His feet and legs suffer as a result. Ranji' s own health is suffering due to acidity.

Today is 03-09-2019. Yesterday was Vinayaka Chaturthi. On 1 St only Gowri Puja. I have shown you my puja idols. Does mine look nice? I had tears in.my eyes as I chanted Vishnu Sahasranamam. Only the God knows where are you and how are you? I remembered all our days and the chasm is there . Somewhere God keeps you. 
Missing you my son. 
Affly,
Amma. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

That picture shown is my Vara Mahalakshmi. Is it nice?

Affly,

Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 09- 08-2019 and it is Vara Mahalakshmi vrata day today.

Since about 3 years I am doing this puja though from ancestors times I don't have it. 

Ranju has it as Ram' s mother has it. They do it with the photo of the Goddess. Since I am just adopting,I have done it with a Coconut placed over a ' sombu'. Only thing is Improved  it this year by rubbing  turmeric over the coconut. 

The picture displayed for you is Ranju' s decoration of her Vara Mahalakshmi. 
May the Goddess bless us and you too,wherever you are now.
Missing you my dearest son.
Affly,
Amma. 

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31.07.2019, Wishing You A Very Happy Birthday my dear son. Missing you so very much.

Today I went to Lalbagh along with Ranju to buy some seeds for her vegetable producing soil bags. These bags are kept in her top most ceiling and a Gardner comes to tend them. She started this roof gardening as she had planned it in her independent house here. Also her basic acidity and stomach problems prefer to grow some vegetables at least which are free of pesticides. 

The country is suffering lots of health problems due to over addition of pesticides in farm produces. Especially in certain states the usage is too much as farmers do not want to incur losses due to pests infecting the crops.

This year the rains are a bit less and this flat is having water shortage as tankers are less due to ground water depletion. I am storing water now in some buckets. 

Politics is very bad now and party jumping quite common. Very negative traits are seen in this 21 St century. As they say " Kali Kaala " indeed. 

The picture I have displayed is Ranjini's music class after performing in Indira Nagar Gayana Sabha hall called " Purandhara Bhavana" last Saturday. I went for their anniversary celebrations on Sunday. I could not go and see Ranjini sing as on Saturday there was no permission for parents to come. You will be surprised to know that Ranjini sings classical. I will try copy pasting one of the audios for you.
Affly,
Amma.

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Now it is9.42 and tomorrow is your birthday.
I am giving you the remaining news. Karnataka Congress Jdu govt fell. So now BS Yediyuurappa is the BJP chief Minister.Throughout India No viable opposition..it won't affect me as I am a Hindu but finance,  income all worrisome.
India lost the Email world Cup. The final was between England and Newzealand which went a super over and super over was also tied. So England was declared winner as they had made more boundaries in their innings. Some ICC rule. Anyway thrilling match and what a sportsman was Kane Williamson the NZ Captain.
I will write again tomorrow. Advance Happy Birthday Rajesh.
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

   I have  to give some updates regarding some news.
1. India lost the semi final against New Zealand 9th. New Zealand lost a very interesting World cup final on 14th.against England which had beaten Australia in the semi final on 11th. The 50 overs got tied leading to a super over which was also tied. But England won on the rule that they had more boundaries than New Zealand.🙄.But very ,very intense and a great cricketing match. Same day in the centre court at Wimbledon a great final was in progress between Roger Federer and Novak Djacovich. A hard fighting Novak overcame a thrilling tie breaker which ran to 13 games in the final 5 the set. All in all a great sporting week.
Next news is that Seetha Mami, Balu Mama, Chitra and her children Varum and daughter Avantika visited on 13 th and left on 13 th.staying one night at Ranjini. The photo of the children are uploaded for you. More news after I return from meditation.
Affly,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Just now watching India and Newzealand world cup one day,50 overs match. Don't know which team will win,but generally Newzealand have beaten us in world cup. The world cup is happening in England. This match at Manchester. Newzealand is batting and we will have to bat second. Just now the second wicket fell. The second semi final is between England and Australia on 11th.
Today is 9 th.and this is July your birthday month. Though it looks clouded and dark no rains here so far. All Indian states are reeling under drought conditions.
Appa has gone to Vaniambadi and seems to have engaged himself in some sort of limited assignment.
On 12 th. Bala Mama, Seetha Mami,Chitra and son Varun and daughter Avantika visiting us. They will be leaving on 13th.So one day visit. Coming for lunch and possibly seeing Ranjini 12 th evening and then seeing Dhanam and Kannan and leaving.
Being 09-07-2019 I am thinking of you. Some troubles are felt more when there is no son. Just now TV connection gone and I feel if only you were there!!!. Being a flat the antenna or hub with many connections are getting disturbed.
I am signing off now.
Affectionately,
Amma.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is 1 St.July 2019. This is your birth month. As I started typing I felt immense happiness. I remember the wait that I had before giving birth to you. I get the concept of some jiva for giving meaning to others lives. Also they are so good that they have to go away. Perhaps you were one. 
This year it seems the rains will be delayed. Haphazard monsoon and climate changes are everywhere. A global concern. Goverments are not led by socially good leaders. Government schemes are just on paper and not really working. Kali Yuga only.
Ranjini has gone for her music class. Did I write to you that Ranjini is singing.😊. She is and she is interested too. She is on a yo yo regime with regard to health. I hope she does not land as a sick person. 
On a day to day basis I am in a rhythm. I meditate and read certain numbers of stotram.
Rest in next.
Affectionately,
Amma.

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I am giving you all the world cup 2019, 50 overs match updates. India beat Pakistan comprehensively in a rain marred match. So the world cup  record for India against Pakistan stands maintained. Today Bangladesh has beaten West Indies. So some more matches will throw up real competition I think . Marketing and hype gets sold. So one can't complain. I feel if you were there you would have also gone to see it and I would have loved it. 
More on it.
Affly,
Amma.

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            I wrote day before yesterday detailing everything from election to the exit if Congress as a party. Also about cricket world cup going on in England and Wales. Today India is playing with Australia. Started at 3 afternoon Indian time. 

              Ranjini has gone with Ram to Chikballapur on a Prerana assigned work. Ram is now working as CEO for a NGO called Prerana and is in charge of selecting aspiring students for higher education. Some funding has come.
Today is 09- 06-2019. Thinking of you my son.
Affly,
Mama.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is the 7th.of June. Ranjini' s birthday 2nd.June is over and since for the last 3 weeks she and Sudha are going to Mysore ( staying in Sudha' s place,for promoting computer learning in Kuderu college. This is done as part of Ram' s NGO " Prerana" work. I think I have not written to you about Ram' s NGO ,' Prerana'. Ram after leaving Mphasis started working for Alliance University teaching Corporate Management to MBA students. He also started working initially as secretary for this Karnataka based NGO by name Prerana. Alliance university though had good standing in education disintegrated due to 2 of the brother's rivalries. So Ram stopped working for them. Meanwhile this Prerana due to clean administration by Ram and his associates has attracted attention. Being good in management and sincerity and transparency in dealings Ram has been moved as  CEO . Due to some other major donor signing up Ram is looking for students who are interested in higher education in backward districts of Karnataka like Chamaraja Nagar and Chickkaballapur, Magadi etc. Such a has joined Prerana after quitting Accenture. Ranjini is doing free work as she is Ram' s wife. Even I am donating a sum of Rs.1000/ per month to Prefabs. ( It is for the tuition fee of a student. Not particular student but is used for the tuition fee of 1 student funded by Prerana.).

                It somehow satisfies Ram. Just now he is motivated to work for this NGO. 
                 The Narendra Modi Government is running it's second term. Rahul Gandhi the son of Rajiv Gandhi is defeated in the family bastion of Amethi,in UP. The future of Congress in the face of the rising of the Hindu ideology prominent BJP( Bharatiya Janata Party) seems to be getting g faint. I wonder what would have been your choice of political affiliation if you were here.😊 ).

             Coming to cricket the world cricket is on and India has won its first match against South Africa on 5th. West Indies has managed to run well and seems like serious contention. 

Missing you,my dearest son,
Affly,
Amma 

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                                 It is election time in India. Actually tomorrow the results will start coming. The exit polls predicts Narendra Modi who is the P.M.at the center and belongs to BJP is winning again. Since BJP is highlighting Hindutwa and the consequences being a type of divide amidst people I am not find of BJP. The other national alternatives are hugely regional and other than Congress which has deteriorates at the grass root level as nationalism is now after 70 years of independenc ( actually my age) is being tinged with majority religion colour. The impact of independence struggle from colonialism has disappeared as the younger generation has no exposure or regard for the independent feeling. That is my generations children has no experience of a national identity.
                       Along with this the dynastic rule of the Gandhi family, has failed to generate prosperity and corruption free governance and widening divide and rule play in all aspects of life. 
                                I think every century encounters a crisis like this. So there you are.I used to regret that in today's analytical data scope,artificial intelligence research,and technology growth you missed out being here. Do also during this period of political change in identity you are missed by me. I could have gauged today's trend and why it is do by seeing you grow and form your opinions. Danny is there of course and she definitely is understanding about today ' s alienation. She does hear me out too.
                      I went to Coordinate from 29th April to 4th May and saw all my brothers . I am feeling alienated 😑😁too from my brothers. More on this subject later. 
Affly
Amma. 
P.S. that picture is the Mangalore Southe kayi from Ranju' s garden. 

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               09-05-2019,a Thursday. I had a death news just about 45 minutes back. A cousin of mine,Sankaran,died of cancer. Coimbatore cousins.
It does not matter as he is aged.Thinking of you my dear.

Now for good and interesting news. You remember me writing about T20 matches and Indian Premier League. Now for this 2019 Chennai Super Kings, Mumbai Indians and Delhi Capitals have come as the 3 teams in the last round. Mumbai Indians are straight into the finals having beaten CSK. Now CSK and DC should play one game to decide who goes into the finals. Tomorrow is this game.
It is election time in India. I have to write about Indian political scenario to you. I really have to explain as somehow in updating you I have left out politics.
The Bharathiya Janatha Party or in short BJP is at the centre having won absolute majority in 2014 elections beating Manmohan Singh led UPA govt.with Congress and allies. But now in 2019 the electrons for centre has come and are being held in 7 phases. I have voted in Bengaluru. I am against BJP though Ranju and Ram are pro.BJP.Any way none of the political parties are seeing to the well being of the people. All have superficially done some work and people after all has to choose someone.
So that is the situation.
I will write again.
Affectionately,
Amma.
* Thinking of you my son. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

                             Today I am not getting the colour in font. So though I have uploaded the Kani konnai flowers for you I am typing in black font. I am watching IPL. As I am a Chennai Super Kings fan, I am glad to inform you CSK is almost in the play off stage. But yesterday against Royal Challengers, Bengaluru which is my next preferred team and which is led by the Indian cricket captain Virat Kohil ,it is at the bottom of the IPL T20 going on now. Whereas CSK led by M.S.Dhoni is at the top of the team. But in yesterday' s match CSK lost to RCB in abthrillia  final ball run. M.S.Dhoni scored 84 runs and single handedly almost won the match. Anyway the league matches are vecbecomthrilling. I miss you as I see them as you have not seen them as the first World Cup T20 was played in 2007. If you see these blogs I would have described the rules after seeing the first 2007 world cup being won by India as I sat in Chennai station and blogged for you.

Rajesh, I am worried . Appa is becoming more and more rigid and difficult to live with and Ranjini has one or other health problems. I feel a sort of disconnect with the world at large. I am not liking the way the politics of this country is going on. I am not convinced that the present Prime Minister Narendra Modi is a man meant for India. Why am I becoming disturbed at the tinge of Hindutwa coming alive though I myself am a staunch Hindu?

Missing you my son. Be around and take care.
Affly
Amma.

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My Dear Takes,
Last 09th. April 2019 this cell sim went for an upgrade and so I could not write. Today,the 15 the.April being Vishu day after getting up and photographing the kani I am writing to you. I am thinking of you my son. I feel a lump in my throat. The inevitable loss that occurred in my life makes me sad and despondent. Nothing fills the void but we carry on. 

Ranjini and Ram might come for lunch to day. Anyway carrying on with the day.

Thinking of you,
Affly,
Anna.

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                              That was Seetha Mami for you in Abhudhabi where both Bala Mama and Mami had gone to visit Chitra. Just this 7 th they came back and on 13 th they are off to Mumbai. Bala' s boss Swaroop is going to 97 or so,as a result all people who worked under him are gathering in Mumbai. Bala also plans to see all relatives at Mumbai too. Landed in Ganesh' s house. 

India lost to Australia in India. 02-03. Just before that in Australia India has beaten them. Heaven knows the present trends in these things. 

Elections are from April 11th . I am yet to change from Mysore my election ID. All are just not upto the standard. Governance is from the lowest of the calibre. Just some hours back,Mumbai over ridge collapsed. Nobody reviews their conditions. 
Missing you my Son.
Affly,
Amma.

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09-03-2019,a Saturday today.
I have again subscribed for cricket group and yesterday I watched India vs.Australia one day match 50 overs. India did not win.🙄.
Appa' s sugar count is way too high and he is very undisciplined and scolds Ranjini and me always. Ranjini was again sick yesterday and I feel she has become afraid of health issues. I am definitely stressed.

I just want to go away from all but know that I cannot. A wee bit of resignation has come in my heart and it helps.

I do not want to write about unhappy things to you,but I am because I have to tell you. Somewhere out there are you suffering? Or is that a better life. The slight treading sensation that causes wueeziness is coming only very rarely now. Am I insensitive?

Be happy Rajesh. Choose to be happy.

Affly,
Thinking of you,
Amma.

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Today is 09-02-2019. Appa' s birthday and he is 76 years . No celebrations.  Day before yesterday I went and got a corn under left foot removed at Speciality Hospital as it was paining. Yesterday I went for checking it up again with the doctor. Both times with Ranju only. 

Two pigeons are trying to have a nest here on the front balcony. I am reluctant to pigeon net the front balcony but I can't have the pigeons living there too. I am a bit over worked and definitely aging. Hospital charges are costly nowadays and in today's astrological predictions for me I am supposed to discover that I always incur expenditures as I socialize and am supposed to see other less costly hang outs. I think it is true.

I have spent RS.17000/ last year on my Bhakthi chading,not a single pie in meditation other than some RS.700/ . After these too a bit of " I am recognised only as a donor" feeling is there. 🙄.

So I have given you a smile icon. On the news front all corruption and untruths and unhappiness. Somehow from.life contentment has gone. 

Is there another dimension to life? I think it was drastically a misfortune or ill luck that we all lost you. If there is another dimension I want you to be with us always.

Missing you very much.

Affly,

Amma.

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I was thinking of you during meditation today. Somehow the loss is not  comfortable however you term it. 
Missing you my son.
Affly,
Amma.

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Today is 09- 01-2019. I am having that queasy sensation and I feel some bad news is coming. Sometimes I feel you are trying to say you are in pain. All sorts of reading does make one wander in different thoughts. Anyway for a bad news,the message has come. After we moved from 1706 in 2009 to 1343, in the opposite house there resided a family of husband and wife Ramesh and Vasantha and two boys called Karthik and Kiran. After shifting for giving some books of yours I had interacted with them. I have given Karthik some books of yours. This Vasantha is  now deceased. News of demise  came today and Ranju messaged me and I am upset. 

Life goes on Rajesh. It takes a great realisation fully imbibed NB within realistically to know this illusion called life. But this realisation does not lessen our grief. We do so yearn to get back what we have lost. But this realisation does make us forgive others who have hurt us. There is no use talking to those who does not realise. But we do identify those who do not realise yet. 

Just remembering you Rajesh.

One happy news is India has beaten Australia in a 4 test series after some 3 or 4 decades. 

Be okay and in knowledge that we love you always and there can never be another one like you my son.

Affly,

Amma.