My Day Today.

My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

                               Today is 31st.of December 2018. One more year goes by. And we miss you.
The happenings are 1...Nithya got a baby girl. 2... Chinnamani Chithappa passed away.3... My flat friend here moved to Mysore.4... My another flat friend lost her husband. 5... I am sort of bored with day to day cooking. 6... Corruption and civil chaos seems to be increasing. 7..I am not wanting to see movies,serials,dances and even whatsaWh forwards are uninteresting. 8... I am feeling  toxic. Means small deviations and shades of opinions like Appa telling me ' don't give coffee to everyone dropping in' makes me feel burdened. 9... Energy loss is there. I have to de toxify my thoughts and more prayers to God and the ultimate needs to be done.10... This is my New Year Resolution. 

Today I am going with a friend to Surabharathi for a Carnatic music program. Not a very great friend,anyway some company. 

My prayers for you too my dear son. Be happy wherever you are. I must always be with you both as my children. Ranju and you,always.

Affectionately,
Amma.

My Day Today.

My dear Rajesh,

I did write one blog for you just now uploading Ranju' s photo for you which is the latest. But the colour did not come as font colour and as I published it the writing is difficult to read with the background colour. 

So after uploading Ranju' s photo again successfully I ha e played safe by writing in black. 

I am on. Appa is going to Mysore tomorrow. Some renewal in post office. Ranju came for lunch today. I did have a general behaviour upset as I feel unappreciated. My anger is my regular upset about Appa. Ranju says I can't hope anything to be rectified and I can't hope to ensure it by speaking sharply. Nowadays she gets irritated by sharp intonations.
I do want to rectify myself.
I miss you my son.
Today is another 9th. 09- 12-2018. Shortly another year will come .And we miss you again. Are you alright?

Affly,

Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.

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My Dear Rajesh,

I have today successfully uploaded Ranju' s latest face picture for you. Somehow the font colour chosen by me is coming as background. 

Today is another 9th. 09- 12-2018. One more year end will come and we will be missing you.

I am sometimes having a queazy feeling. I feel something is slowly approaching me. Am I ready or not? Are you calling me. I have these thoughts.
I can only say I miss you my son.

Affly,
Amma. 

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My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

                       09.11.2018. Twelve long years. Missing you my son.
Affly,
Amma.

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My dear Rajesh,
                             15th. Of October 2018. Today is Saraswati Pooja day. I have kept your book,Ranju Ra' s System Management book,my meditation book,and Appa's book. Mysore Diasara on. Since photography has improved Dasara photos look great. Missing you.

Now a days Arun is not in touch. Me too not trying to keep the touch too. Life moves on. Just because my health is down and Ranjini' s health also down I have shopped and shopped. Spent almost RS.15000/plus on buying dolls for Ranjini. Also bought7 saris for me. Spent RS.7000/. Mad really. But the mind is a strange thing. Unhappy with the bhajan group not going for any program. Somehow I am not relating to people. 
Just carrying on
.But complaints alone is not life and so I plan to move on.
Keep well.
Affly,
Amma.

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My dear Rajesh,
                            Today is 9 th.October 2018. One more month and it will be 12 years. That photo of two pigeons is clicked by me as they stood near a chilly November last year. The last of the pigeons grown under my support. After that because of the loss of servant maids and difficulty in cleaning up,the pigeon net was put. One of the pigeons died too. I sort of was upset as the mother pigeon , I felt could not properly feed it. I had to ask one security fellow to remove it and put it elsewhere after it died.

               Life is very difficult now a days Rajesh..All sorts of developments are taking place. Women want to go to Sabarimala. Women in media exposing men who have harassed them during their career. You might ask me what is wrong,Amma? I will say nothing is wrong. But caution should be there in choosing a profession. Certain professions cannot guarantee righteousness with it. Every woman knows it. But explaining it is difficult. Choose safe,live safe,a little downplay etc.is my way.
         
             You be alright my son. Will write again.
Affly,
Amma.

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My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,
                            Thinking of you. Again due to reading about cough and cold and seeing the word,trachea I was disturbed.
                  I have not helped you ,have I?. Ranju is somewhat OK nowadays. Since last few days I am suffering cold and cough. I have the following news.
                Chinnamany chittappa ,New York Kumar's father ( Mani thatha' s brother passed away on 13 th.of this month. September. My flat friend Ragini ' s husband too passed away on Tuesday 11th September.
                Just now at Dubai ,India is playing Asia cup with Pakistan.
               Let me see whether I can download a picture for you.

Affluent,
Amma.

                    

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My Day Today.
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My Dear Rajesh,

                            09.09.2018,another date in the calendar. Thinking of you.
                              I am slightly unwell and upset and I do want to go away from this life. I am more and more of the beleif,this life is just misery and pain. I must get used to lightening myself. 
Will write again.
Affly,
Amma. 

Krishna Janmashtami

My Day Today.
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My dear Rajesh
                            Remember the Krishna Janmashtami s we have celebrated. Today too minimum one coconut burfee and one Then kuzhal murukku was done.
Somewhere there our Krishna will be looking. I am becoming slightly weak.  Ranju yet to regain her health.
How have been you wherever you are.
Loving you,
Affly
Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.

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My Dear Rajesh,

Today is Thursday 09-08-2018.

Just now writing sitting in front of the TV. Just news highlighting violence in the name of religion .

I will be writing again later.

I have not been able to upload any pictures as I am forgetting how to load it.

Thinking of you. 

Lots of news is there.

Affly,

Amma.

My day-to-day

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My dear Rajesh

                      ....Elated that you could be written to again.Today I am feeling lethargic. Reason not much meditation done. Petepheral I thought. 

                    Perhaps something need be achieved here too.Life gets boring. 

Let me not upset you.. I will write after getting rid of this mode.ok?

Affly,

Amma.

My Day Today.

My Day Today.

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My Dear Rajesh,

                               Wishing you A Very Happy Birthday my dear Son. 31st.of July 2018. May all the divinities of this universe keep you happy and smiling wherever you are now. 

                 Ranjini and me went to IS ON complex temples in Kachara kanahalli today. Out of 4 temples there Sai Baba and Lakshmi Narasimha temples were open early as we reached there at 5.15. The other two of Kannika Parameshwara and the Hanuman/ Sri Rama temples were to open at 6.30 p.m. only. So we saw the Sai Baba temple and the Lakshmi Narasimha temple and prayed and went to Kammanahalli to purchase 1 tee shirt and one shirt to Bharath ( Veena's son). He leaves to the U.S.on coming 9 th August to San Jose California University for his M.Tech.in Computer Engineering. Yes, I did miss buying for you. I do feel nowadays that it is sort of artificial to say these words to you again and again. 

                      Living has to be continued and so we are carrying on. You must be  somewhere. So be it. 

                        Letting you know that we are and we're fortunate to have you in our lives and the emptiness can never be filled. Be Happy wherever you are Rajesh.

                    Your mother loves you.

Affly,

Amma.

My Day Today.

My Dear Rajesh, 
                               Another 9 th. And Thinking of You. 
Affly,

AMMA. 

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My Dear Rajesh,

                             09-06-2018 ,a Saturday today. Time morning 9.55 a.m. There is a gulp in my throat today thinking of you. I am not okay emotionally. What else ,a very difficult Appa,whose blood sugar is climbing up and I am unable to cope up as he has become very unsocial. 

                             It is the onset of monsoon here and daily it is cloudy. But the rains have not come. Strong winds are taking it away. The next shortage in this world is going to be water. Also plastic. It is said the ocean itself is being filled up with so much plastics that some whales are dying as they are swallowing it. I am definitely minimising by taking a bag for buying. 

                                I feel a tilt towards Civic sense,morality,tolerance are needed here in this country. I have kept some potted plants and the greenery there is balm to my eyes. 

                                  My computer screen is gone during anthunder and lightning night and Ranju has not been able to change it. So I am typing this here.

                             Wherever you are, I want you to be always my son. Also Ranjini' s only brother. I see a bright sun,the flowers of Gilmohar and leaves waving in the breeze. May all these beautiful things in this life that brightens one's day be always with you.

Affly,
Amma.