Just Now I Am.....

Just now I came back from a walk tired.I wanted solace, comforting words. I was looking at my cell thinking "Whom shall I phone".Then the thought came here I am within you , saying I am all pervasive, everywhere in trees, rocks and silent deities, as you want to see me. Why don't you ever use me, talk to me?Yes, fool though I am i am aware that I must talk to him who is within me , ready to listen to my sorrows, console me and offer changes that occur as my strenghths.I am already o.k. now. So I thought here I have not written for a long time. So here I am if not fully refreshed at least standing up. Jayamala.

Some Time....

Some time it is difficult to get started.You stop going to places, you stop talking to neighbours, you stop walking and because I am aware that I have reasons to be depressive I try to restart. Today is such an attempt.I do want to feel something not just be empty inside.So much empty space is inside me I do not know how to fill up.

I have to get up.

Jayamala.

After Some Time.

I have been away a long time here.No words are there to be expressed.Time itself has no meaning now.So how could words be needed.Slowly and surely I am going away.But does that hurt? No, not at all. Pain when it has become a reality ceases to matter.So just be.

Jayamala.

Youth.

Just now I saw the win by Kings XI Punjab against Chennai Super Kings who had posted a very competetive score of 188 runs.But Paul Valathy!!!!!11 Oh! How he batted.I thought today Adam Gilchrist will come to form and score.But it is youth that won the day.Prety Zinta was exciting to watch.A natural in her enthusiasm.

Jayamala.

A Sunny Day.

A Sunny Day.
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After the fall, as the leaves turns green,

A sunny day it is here.

A contrast with the remnant of chill from a winter gone,

The sun has come up strong and hot.

Like biting a chilli pepper accidently while one eat,

A repast that is cool but hot.

A contradiction?.Yes? Why not?

Life is here to teach me to love and be cool,

As it flies away in a vast list of hurts and longings.

So today I smile and tomorrow I might not log in???

Jayamala.

At This Spot....

At this spot, I had stood on a new day,

It was but last year, a year that flew bad,

What with news of corruped souls,

What with news of crimes unsolved,

Does that matter to me? Sure as that made the year bad.


I stand again as a speck in a multitude,

watching happenings around me,

Can I do anything about it?

Yes! I can, if only to speak here.

I do have a voice unstilled though my soul is dead.

Doctor? Can you help me please?

Jayamala.