A Bud and Some Leaves.

Here is a tribute to a little plant,

That I potted on a rainy day.

I was walking by and I saw,

A plant species unknown.


The flower was great to look at,

And I thought why not pot it?

Should we only plant known species?

why not wilderness too?

Next day I walked with a poker in hand.

I dug it up and carried it home,

This sweet little unknown plant.

It had its place,it had its manure,

And my hope that it will flower again.

Yes it is seasonal rain now.

I look at this pot with its unknown plant.

Is something sprouting?Or has it died?

For a week I was not home.

I came back and was busy too.

One day I saw this pot of mine ,

And Lo!! the plant has come up,

strong and straight.

The buds are there too and so were the flowers.

Here is to the unknown buds and leaves that makes our day.

Jayamala.

For You alone.

For you alone is this call in pain,

you who is gone forever from me.

Where shall I seek you?

Answer for I am in pain.


Seek within you,a heart string twined,

Oh! yes,I shall forever,

For where does though can be/

if not within me,sweet dream?

Jayamala.

Nothingness.

Today I hold on to nothingness,

This empty space in me.

With what shall I fill this,

Shallow in me so deep?


Shallow and yet I call it deep?



Yes,shallow as I know nothingness,

Deep as I know that the shallowness in me is deep.

Jayamala.

Odious Comparisons.

Just now I was watching CNNindia's programme on the topic who is big super star?Whether it is Rajni Kanth of Tamil cinema or Amitabh Bachan of Hindi cinema?I think comparisons are the norms now a days.When Abhishek Bachan married Aiswarya Rai and Sharukh Khan was not invited for the wedding it also invited one comparison.Whether Sharukh was left out intentionally or not?

Here also the comparison has no common ground.Rajni Kanth is a regional language hero and has his own style of acting.Amitabh being an actor in Hindi which has wider area coverage is an actor of a different caliber.By the way both have acted together in "Hum".

I sometimes feel that if media has nothing to say it rakes up issues.While the pro gramme was on there was a break in coverage as the Woolmer case was broadcast.I really thought there must have been some trouble in the country about the comparison and hence it had been taken off the telecast.:).Fortunately it was not so and the telecast had continued.Also sometimes the media is asking for their views from people who are not exposed to both the actors.What sort of decision or opinion can be got when the media asked two persons who have not seen Rajni at all in cinema?The "screen"editor said from her reading of Rajni and the other person asked was a fan of Amitabh!

If only they have asked me I would have said the correct standing.:)My vote goes to Rajni Kanth as a pucca super star.No one can imitate his style.Mind you I never used to like either of them initially.So views have been matured over time.

Both have interesting scenes etched in my mind that are comic.Rajni's scene viewing the snake peeping through a hole in that movie"Thambikku Entha Ooru',is equal to Amitabh singing"Paan Banaraswala".Anyway let me forgive the media as it is not worth the while to discuss this issue at all.I have discussed it here for a change too.:)

Jayamala.

I Was Touched.

Today while reading "The Hindu',I was touched by one article which was in their magazine section.It was published under the 'India Beats' section.The story was about one retired headmaster who took upon himself to plant trees and make his village which was arid and hot green and pleasant.This village Selakarichal village near coimbatore was dry and without trees.The headmaster after his retirement called Veluswamy took upon himself to plant tree saplings of different variety and the village is now green and shady.

I wish to do some activity like this too.There is Thimmakka who planted pee pal trees in Karnataka in a village too though I forget the name of the village.When I read about so many useless news about how Bacchan is a brand( Of what use is that?),and read about these lesser known but really impressive people I am glad and my sense of wanting to be useful in some way surfaces again.

Let me see?

Jayamala.

Thoughts Again.

I have written quite a few notes on thoughts.Thoughts seems to bother me more and more.Unlike earlier times when I used to enjoy just chatting up with some one on net,nowadays(actually quite some months since),I am not finding it interesting.Day before yesterday just to see my reaction once more,I went to yahoo chat and logged in at one community room.Absolutely boring people whoever popped in to chat.I will not try it again.

Why thoughts bother us?Is peace a process wherein thoughts are zero?I think as a biological being human being is always with thoughts.If not ordinary thoughts,lofty thoughts,still they are thoughts.I know why I am bothered so much and have stopped enjoying interaction.It is the withdrawal symptom,afflicting me.I want to talk only when I chose and I want to interact only when I want.I now know why people taking sanyas wanted to be away from this interactive society.It only means for the present,I have crossed the boundaries wherein I find interaction interesting.It will not be so.Once I accepted this,I am not searching anymore for meaning in thoughts.It is so and it will be so.A finality has come now.

Even intellectual sanyas can be taken when answering questions and finding answers are not a must anymore.So I have arrived now to that feature of the mind where silence is beautiful and more the silence less the struggle.Yes 'A Living Dead' as the masters say.Keep it up.

Jayamala.

Let Me See This Through.

What are storms?Climatic catastrophe?In the usual way of saying things it is so.But storms in personal relationships are equally turbulent too.After every storm even in nature,you do have a period of respite that is silent.It is at these times one takes stock.At these times things fall into perspective.One is aware of how one spoke too much or too little.How one wronged another and the cunningness of it all.

How does one move out of such happenings?When one matures,one can see from a distance the senselessness of it all.The senseless arguements,demands and the heart burns.Yes,the heart is burnt unnecessarily when it could have been put to use in so many different ways.'When in doubt refer to your heart',says my Master.I have started doing it and it does give me peace.It does also give me the senselessness of even this writings here.But I am continuing as I want some activities.I am actually waiting to go somewhere where there is eternal rest.

Like Milton in 'Paradise Lost',I too want to move the story forward after the great fall.So also i now understand the urgency in Tagore when he gives the keys to his house when death comes calling at his door.(Geetanjali).I want to say goodbye too to all those who helped me tide over my difficult phase in life.The storm has abated and it is time to take stock of my life.

I shall do so shortly.

Jayamala.