Yesterday night was sleepless,for obvious reasons.Nowadays I do not think of taking a tablet to aid sleep,though I am very restricted about using it,even earlier.I had this thought,that when you really set about it you can give up many things.
I understood suddenly,why I am unable to enjoy movies,chat,even writing in 'orkut',discussions. I have crossed those stages.When one moves forward,with regard to relationships and its meanings and then one reflect the meaning of life,then one can observe the silence that underlines all the earlier chattering s.Earlier it was imperative for me to verbalize,not anymore.This silence is a blessing indeed. It has given me strength to the permanent absence of my beloved,and gave depth to the spiritual meaning of what it is to be silent.Perhaps as I continue I might even discard the verbalization being done here too.I am indulging in it,only to keep track of how my mind has evolved of late.
Gone are the urge to phone up home,expect phones from support friends, and I could hold on to a sleepless night, with the conscious filled in with thoughts of him who is gone.
I now know why My Master says that,life is to be lived like a walking corpse.Be dead to this life.Death must be the door to eternity and a different dimension.Evolution might come as one reaches that door.I will develop these later.
Jayamala.
Blogs That I Follow.
- http://navallanga.blogspot.com
- News Item That touched Me ....There was one article in this month's Reader's Digest about Kamalbhai Parmar who is running a fabricating unit and who runsa school,rather a tution school for the poor students in Ahmedabad.It takes a large heart to start something like this.I do wish I can do something like that too.Atleast be able to teach in such effort .
- Books That I am reading now.....I am reading "Under Orders" by Dick Francis.Just started.Seems to be about issues in racing sport.
- News Items That Touched Me Today----The bicyc;e scores over train and car in a survey conducted for two wheeler travel ina congested metro like New York as the fastest transport..
- Movies That I Liked.....I watched a Malayalam Movie called'Vastu Hara' in Kairali T.V.yesterday.The story touches about losers who migrate abandoning their personal properties during divison of countries and realtes to the creation of East Pakistan called East Bengal dividing Bengalis .Also running underneath the main issue is the personal loss of property which gets rejected by the Mother in the story who is offered the same back by her Husband's relatives.
- Books That Are My Favorites----Somerset Maughm's short stories,Arthur Conan Doyle's 'sherlock Holm mysteries',All of Shakespearian dramas,The Bronte sister's writings,Poems by Mathew Arnold and Tagore's 'gitanjali'.This list is not exahaustive.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment