A usual day with the sun biting me hot,
A usual day with the daily routine,
A usual day where everyone was going about,
A usual day that was about to end,
But I was about to meet you!
And it was about to become an unusual day for me.
I just looked at the swaying trees in a gentle breeze,
I was watching the birds in flight returning home,
I was watching the orange sunset seeking to paint the world gold,
And you came walking through the winding walk in an oval park,
Busy you were talking with your friend,
And I watched the swaying tresses falling behind,
The world to me was then painted gold indeed.
The sunset was done and the birds had reached home,
But Iam yet to go home my sweet dream,
The park became my home and the tresses my canvas ,
And here Iam sitting in a lonely parkbench,
With nothing to hold but you my dream.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
Back from a journey
I came back last thursday from the journey.My sister-in-law has also come.Tomorrow again Iam having guests for weekend plus Mayday holiday here.Again day after tomorrow some more guests.
I was talking to my sister-in-law about the various aspects of keeping ourselves in equilibrium.She had suffered recently a depression warranting treatment with a psychiatrist.So I was interested in talking to her about the various methods available and the right attitude to keep with regard to stress in life.
Follow some destressing activity including meditation , any method if you are convinced.Otherwise follow only what you feel you can do as otherwise the following itself of a method stresses you.
It is essential that the method chosen is simple and easy to keep in touch on a daily level.For example if one is to choose some activity that needs lot of extra effort like travelling involving other people's help then that activity has to be avoided as you cannot always depend on others.
Do small activities like even growing a plant and watering the garden and even house cleaning.Recently one study has said that women finds satisfaction when they keep their house well cleaned.
Go for a walk and create a group that you can relate to.Evening walks makes you have some interaction with others of same age group and finding that one is not alone with stress helps in recovery.
Have fun cooking something not tried by you for others in one's home.A well appreciated meal is a great healer of wounds and disappointments in life.
Be one with God and your own thoughts for some time at least in a day.So pray and when praying talk to Him to give you strenghth to go through this life.
Read jokes.I like forwards in computer and net friends because of this.
Write your own thoughts.Even this space here is a healer.
Be happy and contented.
Jayamala.
I was talking to my sister-in-law about the various aspects of keeping ourselves in equilibrium.She had suffered recently a depression warranting treatment with a psychiatrist.So I was interested in talking to her about the various methods available and the right attitude to keep with regard to stress in life.
Follow some destressing activity including meditation , any method if you are convinced.Otherwise follow only what you feel you can do as otherwise the following itself of a method stresses you.
It is essential that the method chosen is simple and easy to keep in touch on a daily level.For example if one is to choose some activity that needs lot of extra effort like travelling involving other people's help then that activity has to be avoided as you cannot always depend on others.
Do small activities like even growing a plant and watering the garden and even house cleaning.Recently one study has said that women finds satisfaction when they keep their house well cleaned.
Go for a walk and create a group that you can relate to.Evening walks makes you have some interaction with others of same age group and finding that one is not alone with stress helps in recovery.
Have fun cooking something not tried by you for others in one's home.A well appreciated meal is a great healer of wounds and disappointments in life.
Be one with God and your own thoughts for some time at least in a day.So pray and when praying talk to Him to give you strenghth to go through this life.
Read jokes.I like forwards in computer and net friends because of this.
Write your own thoughts.Even this space here is a healer.
Be happy and contented.
Jayamala.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
A Journey Again.
Iam again on a journey from tomorrow.I will be back after about a week and when Iam coming back a guest can be there with me.In that case I may not be writing till I get some time to do so.Any way Iam doing away with all compulsions ,so Iam doing away with the compulsion to write also.But it is hard at times and I miss writing if prevented for many days.
Some journeys are tedious, as when undertaking the journey there are innumerable obstacles.All the obstacles are surmounted and even then sometimes the journey does not give you pleasure.The reasons are often phisical weariness and mental weariness and relatonship weariness.If the company is good then the weariness is overcome and there is pleasure in the journey.
A journey called life also is like this only.Pleasurable, if the comapny is good and weary if the mind gets flustered and disjointed.So long, farewell and I hope it is temporary, this farewell.
Jayamala.
Some journeys are tedious, as when undertaking the journey there are innumerable obstacles.All the obstacles are surmounted and even then sometimes the journey does not give you pleasure.The reasons are often phisical weariness and mental weariness and relatonship weariness.If the company is good then the weariness is overcome and there is pleasure in the journey.
A journey called life also is like this only.Pleasurable, if the comapny is good and weary if the mind gets flustered and disjointed.So long, farewell and I hope it is temporary, this farewell.
Jayamala.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
An Evening In An Unknown Space.
An Evening In An Unknown Space.
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This was my mind that I called as the unknown space.
Reason?I did not know where I was.
An evening is to me an end of the day.
So the evening indicates the end of chaos.
Coming to think of it, the space I called my mind
Was not so unknown to me.
So I know that Iam having the ability to end the chaos.
What is this chaos?
A confusion as to what I presupposed to be a space called mind.
So here Iam looking at an evening in my known unknown space.
Jayamala.
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This was my mind that I called as the unknown space.
Reason?I did not know where I was.
An evening is to me an end of the day.
So the evening indicates the end of chaos.
Coming to think of it, the space I called my mind
Was not so unknown to me.
So I know that Iam having the ability to end the chaos.
What is this chaos?
A confusion as to what I presupposed to be a space called mind.
So here Iam looking at an evening in my known unknown space.
Jayamala.
Friday, April 21, 2006
Some Irritable Mess.
Iam sorry about some happenings today.This happening has a background.It relates to my chat friend, who have probably have allowed his password to be known and must have shared the talks with me with his friends.
Now he finds that he is sort of out of favour with the group, and so has his messenger peeped in and may be ,he had other friends and he could have behaved in a manner that makes him a butt for jokes by his friends.
This friend now wants me not to talk to some of his group mates ,one of whom talks to me through messenger.He is now going through a messy period.I have a sneaking suspicion that probably the other friends are threatening with the idea that they might reveal his true colors to me.This suspicion is due to the repeated instruction/request to me not to talk to that one friend .
This makes me think that the poor fellow feels ,I will be given data to show his true colors.Iam actually as I write this am smiling.Youth is so vulnerable.I can almost guess his fault ,and Iam sure it is going to be something, which I must have encountered in innumerable youngsters.
But I do find the instructions from this young friend to be inrritating.So Iam calling this a mess.I do feel all messy happenings can be cleared, if only people talk to each other with confidence.Just now I find this friend a bit sickening, though Iam sorry to say so.
Now he finds that he is sort of out of favour with the group, and so has his messenger peeped in and may be ,he had other friends and he could have behaved in a manner that makes him a butt for jokes by his friends.
This friend now wants me not to talk to some of his group mates ,one of whom talks to me through messenger.He is now going through a messy period.I have a sneaking suspicion that probably the other friends are threatening with the idea that they might reveal his true colors to me.This suspicion is due to the repeated instruction/request to me not to talk to that one friend .
This makes me think that the poor fellow feels ,I will be given data to show his true colors.Iam actually as I write this am smiling.Youth is so vulnerable.I can almost guess his fault ,and Iam sure it is going to be something, which I must have encountered in innumerable youngsters.
But I do find the instructions from this young friend to be inrritating.So Iam calling this a mess.I do feel all messy happenings can be cleared, if only people talk to each other with confidence.Just now I find this friend a bit sickening, though Iam sorry to say so.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Some Thoughts On An Impending Good- Bye.
There was no net for three days ,as one day it rained heavily here,and then the service provider had moved on subsequent days.The net came yesterday at 11.30 p.m. and as I was sleepy I did not write here.
Iam likely to travel this coming week and also the second week of May.So again some gaps in writing will be there.After that, by the end of June I might altogether will be in another country if the visa is granted for six months.So again, though I might be able to log in to a computer and write, some days might pass before Iam comfortable enough to use the facilities at the place of visit.
This June visit does make me say goodbyes to some friends of mine here.Friends who have been giving me good times and friends who have stopped being too close and friends with whom I have stopped relating.
One friendship does give some difficulty in parting as the friendship was sincere and it has undergone some change of hues recently due to both of us deciding to let it be so.I gave the impending June journey to this friend first, and natuarally some upset had been noticed by me.
By writing here, Iam actually answering some queries on change of relationship due to time and just because one moves away.Change is the norm of the world and in all the relationship in the world.If we perceive a ceratian relationship then it is there.If we perceive a difference in this relationship ,most times it means that one or the other had wanted movement away and had acted to create this change.Either way the change is in one's self only.
What about the pain of parting?Again the pain is because one wanted to go back in a relationship where the change has occured.Also perhaps one has cared ,so created this pain.All relationships will change, and even if one perceives the change and want to go back to previous position, the movement has occured and so the change is inevitable.Once you realise this aspect of life there is no more pain, and a goodbye is just a movement either in thought or in space.
Jayamala.
Iam likely to travel this coming week and also the second week of May.So again some gaps in writing will be there.After that, by the end of June I might altogether will be in another country if the visa is granted for six months.So again, though I might be able to log in to a computer and write, some days might pass before Iam comfortable enough to use the facilities at the place of visit.
This June visit does make me say goodbyes to some friends of mine here.Friends who have been giving me good times and friends who have stopped being too close and friends with whom I have stopped relating.
One friendship does give some difficulty in parting as the friendship was sincere and it has undergone some change of hues recently due to both of us deciding to let it be so.I gave the impending June journey to this friend first, and natuarally some upset had been noticed by me.
By writing here, Iam actually answering some queries on change of relationship due to time and just because one moves away.Change is the norm of the world and in all the relationship in the world.If we perceive a ceratian relationship then it is there.If we perceive a difference in this relationship ,most times it means that one or the other had wanted movement away and had acted to create this change.Either way the change is in one's self only.
What about the pain of parting?Again the pain is because one wanted to go back in a relationship where the change has occured.Also perhaps one has cared ,so created this pain.All relationships will change, and even if one perceives the change and want to go back to previous position, the movement has occured and so the change is inevitable.Once you realise this aspect of life there is no more pain, and a goodbye is just a movement either in thought or in space.
Jayamala.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Serene spaces.
Some of the most serene spaces I know are always in natural settings.Nature must be giving serenity to everyone.Otherwise why even the most posh hotels have their exclusive spaces surrounded with greenery.So ,green is the colour of peace.You nestle in the lap of mother earth and you are at peace.Most of the tours that are favored are tours that take you away from this hot and concrete structured earth.The day man discovered concrete his peace floundered I think.
I have gone with my friend when working at an office nestling in the western ghats and surrounded by coffee plantations to a simple street called Galibeedu where there are innumerable glow worms float with the lights all aglow at night.Since night buses are less there ,we had to return after being there for a while.But we did see them all aglow.
The same friend was also like me finding peace amidst nature.So we used to walk amidst the hills in the evening ,though the villagers used to gape at us wandering around.In february the mist used to be so thick that one will not be able to see two feet ahead.I used to get milk by going in this mist and I feel that chillness even now.Fresh and beautiful chill it was.Scented with the wooden musk from the trees.
Living in a city now, Iam a little fortunate in having a street where the trees are not cut away by the residents and now it flowers yellow and like a
carpet ,the blooms lie soft at your feet.Also a gentle breeze blows always when the windows are open.You do see some birds too unlike in other places around the city.By doing away with planting friut trees we did away with birds too.To eat the friuts the birds would have come at least.
I think when planting trees on roads the city planners should take into account the depth at which the trees had to be planted so that when the tree grows big it will have enough depth to stand on.Falling of trees can be avoided by such forethought.Also the planting should be at the other side of the street where the electricity wires are not overhead.This will prevent work to the electricity board which has to cut and maitain the trees.
More and more of airconditioners might perhaps make a generation that might not know natural breeze,and I shudder at this thought.Already city children do not know from where rice grains come,unless a studious one questions the teacher and an intelligent and caring teacher does show an experiment growing rice on a pot atleast.
I have also come across some wide meadows that roll green spaces for some miles.Seeing some hills denuded and devoid of trees and full of stunted growth I feel where have all the people gone?Have there ever been people living at these places?Some places does look as though people were living at those places earlier.I have heard that a civilisation dies when a river dries up.Yes, I can imagine that.So the remedy is to grow greenery wherever such things are possible and try to go around a tree instead of making a way by cutting it down.Will you?
I have gone with my friend when working at an office nestling in the western ghats and surrounded by coffee plantations to a simple street called Galibeedu where there are innumerable glow worms float with the lights all aglow at night.Since night buses are less there ,we had to return after being there for a while.But we did see them all aglow.
The same friend was also like me finding peace amidst nature.So we used to walk amidst the hills in the evening ,though the villagers used to gape at us wandering around.In february the mist used to be so thick that one will not be able to see two feet ahead.I used to get milk by going in this mist and I feel that chillness even now.Fresh and beautiful chill it was.Scented with the wooden musk from the trees.
Living in a city now, Iam a little fortunate in having a street where the trees are not cut away by the residents and now it flowers yellow and like a
carpet ,the blooms lie soft at your feet.Also a gentle breeze blows always when the windows are open.You do see some birds too unlike in other places around the city.By doing away with planting friut trees we did away with birds too.To eat the friuts the birds would have come at least.
I think when planting trees on roads the city planners should take into account the depth at which the trees had to be planted so that when the tree grows big it will have enough depth to stand on.Falling of trees can be avoided by such forethought.Also the planting should be at the other side of the street where the electricity wires are not overhead.This will prevent work to the electricity board which has to cut and maitain the trees.
More and more of airconditioners might perhaps make a generation that might not know natural breeze,and I shudder at this thought.Already city children do not know from where rice grains come,unless a studious one questions the teacher and an intelligent and caring teacher does show an experiment growing rice on a pot atleast.
I have also come across some wide meadows that roll green spaces for some miles.Seeing some hills denuded and devoid of trees and full of stunted growth I feel where have all the people gone?Have there ever been people living at these places?Some places does look as though people were living at those places earlier.I have heard that a civilisation dies when a river dries up.Yes, I can imagine that.So the remedy is to grow greenery wherever such things are possible and try to go around a tree instead of making a way by cutting it down.Will you?
Friday, April 14, 2006
Me And Words.
Iam quite wordy on some days.On those days I just talk, talk and talk.Later on I go silent and think why did I talk so much.Mental alert exhibiting itself or empty shells clinking together?
I do this especially when Iam asked to entertain and am in charge of a group.In order to make people comfortable I do choose topics ,make people talk.Do I detest this trait in me?I usually dont but when someone from my family points out and tells me Iam overdoing this making other people comfortable biz, Iam forced to think.
Once, reading a management author who had handled well known personalities I did an analysis as per instructions in that book.After doing everything mentioned there I arrived at the conclusion that Iam probably very lonely inside and hence the talking spree.
What do I do to change the habit?My frank answer is that I do not do anything. Whatever I do to break the trait is done only for two days and after that on a bright sunlit day like today I do it again.
So what is the moral of this write up?I feel sunny today talk, Ido not feel sunny today hide and dont be seen at all.
Jaya.
I do this especially when Iam asked to entertain and am in charge of a group.In order to make people comfortable I do choose topics ,make people talk.Do I detest this trait in me?I usually dont but when someone from my family points out and tells me Iam overdoing this making other people comfortable biz, Iam forced to think.
Once, reading a management author who had handled well known personalities I did an analysis as per instructions in that book.After doing everything mentioned there I arrived at the conclusion that Iam probably very lonely inside and hence the talking spree.
What do I do to change the habit?My frank answer is that I do not do anything. Whatever I do to break the trait is done only for two days and after that on a bright sunlit day like today I do it again.
So what is the moral of this write up?I feel sunny today talk, Ido not feel sunny today hide and dont be seen at all.
Jaya.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
A day of quite solitude.
Today dawned quite and still with a slight breeze blowing though it was extremely hot as usual.I went for my meditation sitting and came back feeling light. Lot of thoughts were going out of my conscious self.
Iam not having any company just now for passing time. I did not phone anyone too.I read a little but the novel that Iam about to finish had not been finished today too.Iam waiting with a quite anticipation for the day to pass on.
The death news and the paraphernalia accompanying such celebrity did not interest me and so I did not watch T.V.specifically for news.
The movie that I left unfinished watching had been completed by me though.I feel Iam at the pinnacle of some innate change.But I must wait again and endure this phase of unending wait for such change.
Talking to one relative on the net today who was talking of spirituality etcetra I felt he is yet to be where Iam. I do not relate to him. I must end this search for relativity too with anyone.
When Iam singing in the group I do relate to the virtues of the higher self.The difficulty had been to keep the higher self always.I slide always down and in one way may be the trip in the offing might just make me alright.
Iam WAITING.
Iam not having any company just now for passing time. I did not phone anyone too.I read a little but the novel that Iam about to finish had not been finished today too.Iam waiting with a quite anticipation for the day to pass on.
The death news and the paraphernalia accompanying such celebrity did not interest me and so I did not watch T.V.specifically for news.
The movie that I left unfinished watching had been completed by me though.I feel Iam at the pinnacle of some innate change.But I must wait again and endure this phase of unending wait for such change.
Talking to one relative on the net today who was talking of spirituality etcetra I felt he is yet to be where Iam. I do not relate to him. I must end this search for relativity too with anyone.
When Iam singing in the group I do relate to the virtues of the higher self.The difficulty had been to keep the higher self always.I slide always down and in one way may be the trip in the offing might just make me alright.
Iam WAITING.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
A Day Of Mixed happenings.
Today it was a day of many happenings for me.To narrate it one by one follow me down.
1)The Kannada matinee idol who was kidnapped by Veerappan died today of heart attack.
2)I shopped before this news came and bought an old type kerosene lamp just like that.I liked its looks and so wanted it.Anyway power cut on and lights are gone and welcome kerosene lamp that looks cute.
3)I had a very bad mail from one of my online friends,and it does not matter as I do not take the matter mentioned to heart.I know he is bad and is chatting only as time pass.Every time he does an act that is not gracious he tries to make it up by excusing himself and try shifting the blame to the other. I have noticed it before. I have decided not to respond anyway.
4)I had a beautiful mail from some one who cares.The minute he writes I know I will be happy.What a different one from the one above!It also speaks loads about how immature Iam in knowing who actually is with me and my own character of always not trusting that the care is there.Every time I start feeling about his not keeping in touch I get a mail or a card. I believe that tarrot reading which said that Iam like this because of my past experiences. Must be true.
5)I wrote a poem today and responded too to the above.Iam Happy, Happy.and smiling.Oh! God!Thank you and let me read this piece whenever Iam in doubt.
1)The Kannada matinee idol who was kidnapped by Veerappan died today of heart attack.
2)I shopped before this news came and bought an old type kerosene lamp just like that.I liked its looks and so wanted it.Anyway power cut on and lights are gone and welcome kerosene lamp that looks cute.
3)I had a very bad mail from one of my online friends,and it does not matter as I do not take the matter mentioned to heart.I know he is bad and is chatting only as time pass.Every time he does an act that is not gracious he tries to make it up by excusing himself and try shifting the blame to the other. I have noticed it before. I have decided not to respond anyway.
4)I had a beautiful mail from some one who cares.The minute he writes I know I will be happy.What a different one from the one above!It also speaks loads about how immature Iam in knowing who actually is with me and my own character of always not trusting that the care is there.Every time I start feeling about his not keeping in touch I get a mail or a card. I believe that tarrot reading which said that Iam like this because of my past experiences. Must be true.
5)I wrote a poem today and responded too to the above.Iam Happy, Happy.and smiling.Oh! God!Thank you and let me read this piece whenever Iam in doubt.
Monday, April 10, 2006
What is this thing called love.
I was thinking today of this very well explored topic and thought I will also have my say on the topic.When one is young love is mostly attraction born out of adoration that we receive from some one to whom we also hold a secret admiration.In case it is maturing as a beautuful friendship with shared interests and a wish to be with each other always the love is blossomed into a beautiful finish.
Suppose the love that one had turned to be only skin deep and is really a desire that could not be curbed then it is only something that has to be dumped at one stage or not by both with perhaps lots and lots of heartburn.
So what is this thing called love? I think there are shades in love too.Love that hurts, love that is immature and love that is foolish and love that is happy and uplifting.
Suppose the love that one had turned to be only skin deep and is really a desire that could not be curbed then it is only something that has to be dumped at one stage or not by both with perhaps lots and lots of heartburn.
So what is this thing called love? I think there are shades in love too.Love that hurts, love that is immature and love that is foolish and love that is happy and uplifting.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Two days of relaxation.
All the guests are gone.Both(there were two) went by 1.30 bus and so I did not see them off at the bus stand.
Yesterday I took a c.d. for all to see and I liked the movie.(Page 3).Though I had read the review of this movie somehow I did not see it.The movie is about journalism in different aspects and with celebrities and their celebrations thrown in with some dances.
It ran well I heard.I took them for my usual walk too and since I met my friend I asked them to be on their own some time and chatted with my friend.Bought some vegetable puffs and potato buns and cakes too to eat.In all everyone was feeling so conforatable and happy that the power failure did not matter and we all sat in the stair case and chatted on different subjects.In all quite and happy two days spent away from my usual lonely days.I do feel relaxed.
Yesterday I took a c.d. for all to see and I liked the movie.(Page 3).Though I had read the review of this movie somehow I did not see it.The movie is about journalism in different aspects and with celebrities and their celebrations thrown in with some dances.
It ran well I heard.I took them for my usual walk too and since I met my friend I asked them to be on their own some time and chatted with my friend.Bought some vegetable puffs and potato buns and cakes too to eat.In all everyone was feeling so conforatable and happy that the power failure did not matter and we all sat in the stair case and chatted on different subjects.In all quite and happy two days spent away from my usual lonely days.I do feel relaxed.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Some guests.
Iam having some guests tomorrow,so Iam working to finish my pending works like ironing and preparing some cooking items that allows me time to be with the guests and talk.
All are youngsters just out of college and working since about some months and one is in the final year.So I expect young minds in talk with me.
I might write here only later after possibly monday.
All are youngsters just out of college and working since about some months and one is in the final year.So I expect young minds in talk with me.
I might write here only later after possibly monday.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
An Effort at Thoughtlessness.
I was feeling listless today.This mood had been with me now for almost a week now.No amount of listening to music,reading and watching T.V.could lighten the heaviness of the soul.
The analysis of the self indulged in by me at these times does point out the mistakes done by me in all situations leading to this staleness of the spirit.Iam a staunch believer of the eternal inference that everyone knows what they are.So rest of it is all pretensions.Pretension that one is hurt and one is exploited and one is taken advantage of etc are all just lies and everyone knows that it is so because of their own actions.
So the way to a healthy day is to take the day lightly, emotions lightly and everything as not so deep as to get a high note but play it low and retain the balance.The philosopher says there is nothing at all here and no relationship will satisfy you unless you recognise it as inevitable burden.So carry it and be fast to deposit it and journey towards the ultimate self.
Today I went for meditation and in meditation too I had this thought of the burden of this life.The answer was whispered by my Guru and I know that there are no questions or doubts in me.I know the answer that the reality is not here and the essence of all beings are in the ultimate merger with that eternal spirit and then all is silent.Every time Iam in this mood of depression and just chattering with the mind I come to this answer and iam aware of the truth.But still wander again.Give me rest from this wandering is my prayer for today.
The analysis of the self indulged in by me at these times does point out the mistakes done by me in all situations leading to this staleness of the spirit.Iam a staunch believer of the eternal inference that everyone knows what they are.So rest of it is all pretensions.Pretension that one is hurt and one is exploited and one is taken advantage of etc are all just lies and everyone knows that it is so because of their own actions.
So the way to a healthy day is to take the day lightly, emotions lightly and everything as not so deep as to get a high note but play it low and retain the balance.The philosopher says there is nothing at all here and no relationship will satisfy you unless you recognise it as inevitable burden.So carry it and be fast to deposit it and journey towards the ultimate self.
Today I went for meditation and in meditation too I had this thought of the burden of this life.The answer was whispered by my Guru and I know that there are no questions or doubts in me.I know the answer that the reality is not here and the essence of all beings are in the ultimate merger with that eternal spirit and then all is silent.Every time Iam in this mood of depression and just chattering with the mind I come to this answer and iam aware of the truth.But still wander again.Give me rest from this wandering is my prayer for today.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
A Tentative Resolution.
There was this arguement yesterday with my friend.When a relationship goes bad who has to be blamed and also why people try to blame one another?
I have three examples that I know.All of them had blamed one another.
In the first one the woman had observed the interest in a youth who happened to be her relation when she was visiting and sometimes staying in the youth's house.The youth was friendly too and used to speak about realtionship matters to her, visiting her home wherein she was alone, as she was working in that city.When the youth was inducing her and she fell and the youth woke up suddenly to the reality that she was her relation she went to pieces.Why when she was normal did he induce her and why when she was flaming did he put her out.It took her years to get over him.
I view this incindent as normal and the conclusion also as normal for when close relations are concerned this is the end.
In another incident the woman was approached by an office collegue.She was aware of his interest in her.Here too when she
found out that the man trying the same approach to another collegue she fell out with him and she broke down.It took this one also some time to get a proper perceptive on the happenings.
Here again I blame the woman as she should have been aware of the collegue's designs.
In the third incident the parties are only involved at the internet level.They do not know each other.So it was only a virtual interaction.Still the girl suffered.
My friend is of the opinion that in all the three cases there were mistakes by the men and women involved.Why knowingly fall for the man as in the second case and why take internet association seriousely?At least in the first case both realised eventhough the suffering did happen.
I feel that life does not run as we wish it.It does run through some crags.So the hurts and the heartburns.Life is full of tentative rsolutions of saying I wont err in future but anyway all do err.Some greviousely too.
I have three examples that I know.All of them had blamed one another.
In the first one the woman had observed the interest in a youth who happened to be her relation when she was visiting and sometimes staying in the youth's house.The youth was friendly too and used to speak about realtionship matters to her, visiting her home wherein she was alone, as she was working in that city.When the youth was inducing her and she fell and the youth woke up suddenly to the reality that she was her relation she went to pieces.Why when she was normal did he induce her and why when she was flaming did he put her out.It took her years to get over him.
I view this incindent as normal and the conclusion also as normal for when close relations are concerned this is the end.
In another incident the woman was approached by an office collegue.She was aware of his interest in her.Here too when she
found out that the man trying the same approach to another collegue she fell out with him and she broke down.It took this one also some time to get a proper perceptive on the happenings.
Here again I blame the woman as she should have been aware of the collegue's designs.
In the third incident the parties are only involved at the internet level.They do not know each other.So it was only a virtual interaction.Still the girl suffered.
My friend is of the opinion that in all the three cases there were mistakes by the men and women involved.Why knowingly fall for the man as in the second case and why take internet association seriousely?At least in the first case both realised eventhough the suffering did happen.
I feel that life does not run as we wish it.It does run through some crags.So the hurts and the heartburns.Life is full of tentative rsolutions of saying I wont err in future but anyway all do err.Some greviousely too.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
An Intelligent Choice.
I was confronted with a strange option today.I can be frank and speak out or just hide facts behind a veil and let staus quo be maintained in a situation.The situation related to money.
During my absence for the past one week my cupboards were rummaged and I thought that my private bank accounts were gone through.So I asked straight what was the checking about.I did get a staright answer that it is only to see whether some other like pan card that was searched and the bank accounts listings were for knowing dates of maturity etc.Any way reasonable answers were given and the matter ended without much confrontation.
So Iam back to the question what must have been an intelligent choice here for a woman who has been independent?A little trust and a little careful questioning I think.Iam glad any way at the outcome.
During my absence for the past one week my cupboards were rummaged and I thought that my private bank accounts were gone through.So I asked straight what was the checking about.I did get a staright answer that it is only to see whether some other like pan card that was searched and the bank accounts listings were for knowing dates of maturity etc.Any way reasonable answers were given and the matter ended without much confrontation.
So Iam back to the question what must have been an intelligent choice here for a woman who has been independent?A little trust and a little careful questioning I think.Iam glad any way at the outcome.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Risk.
I want to talk about taking risks today.
Risk is what we encounter when we take the decision to enter or act in a ceratin manner that might be detrimental to one's own cherished image.
So we now go to what is detrimental to our own so called cherished image?
An image is what we create for ourself when we have an identity as a daughter, as a mother, as a wife, and also as a human being and a social being.
So if there is a position whereby one's identity is not harmed in a neagtive way one does not mind the taking risk.
Risk is also an enterprise.In taking risk one makes one's ingenuity works for one's advantage.
Also sometimes positive risks enhances one's identity worth too.So if a man takes a risk and enters a fire to save a child his self worth is enhanced.But if the same man takes a risk and gambles and loses then his self worth is eroded.
Risks are very risky if one's character is assailed because of the disastrous enterprise.
So if one takes a reasonable risk that is a little dangerous yet is a little thrilling then so long as the enterprise does not erode one's self worth then many are willing to try that risky venture.
So moral of the story is that take a risk and challenge your self to enhance your image. But be careful.
Risk is what we encounter when we take the decision to enter or act in a ceratin manner that might be detrimental to one's own cherished image.
So we now go to what is detrimental to our own so called cherished image?
An image is what we create for ourself when we have an identity as a daughter, as a mother, as a wife, and also as a human being and a social being.
So if there is a position whereby one's identity is not harmed in a neagtive way one does not mind the taking risk.
Risk is also an enterprise.In taking risk one makes one's ingenuity works for one's advantage.
Also sometimes positive risks enhances one's identity worth too.So if a man takes a risk and enters a fire to save a child his self worth is enhanced.But if the same man takes a risk and gambles and loses then his self worth is eroded.
Risks are very risky if one's character is assailed because of the disastrous enterprise.
So if one takes a reasonable risk that is a little dangerous yet is a little thrilling then so long as the enterprise does not erode one's self worth then many are willing to try that risky venture.
So moral of the story is that take a risk and challenge your self to enhance your image. But be careful.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
A Blue Blue Hill Ahead.
A blue blue hill was ahead,
beckoning me to glide ahead,
on its winding roads,
the well travelled shadows,
hiding amongst its clandestine affairs.
I know I will go glide along,
if only Iam a little free of my shadows,
for the clandestine affairs of mine are there
shrewn for all there to see for Iam but a novice in love with my nature.
beckoning me to glide ahead,
on its winding roads,
the well travelled shadows,
hiding amongst its clandestine affairs.
I know I will go glide along,
if only Iam a little free of my shadows,
for the clandestine affairs of mine are there
shrewn for all there to see for Iam but a novice in love with my nature.
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