Iam in good mood today though.Just now was talking to someone who needs help.I think I helped by talking to him.So also Iam going tomorrow to help my sister-in-law who has her daughter delivering a baby boy.
A journey in anticipation always thrills me.
I have this habit of always thinking what dresses should I take for the journey and packing and then when really going, taking some other dresses and not the ones that I kept already.I used to analise this nature of mine.One of my friend had said that ,as Iam very much living alone anything that disturbes it is causing a ripple in my mind and so the hyperactvity.I talk also too much to people and the reason again she said is this living alone.I think that she is right.Many a time it is sort of easy for people to make me spend for them too.The priest can get money from me, the astrologer whom I visited for a friend with that friend also in tow is paid by me and not that friend.I have again and again been doing these acts of unnecessary committments and I have one day written down the reason for this trait of mine.
I feel like throwing money in drain as I feel every committment made by me when I feel sympathetic to be acted on.That was why I gave an unnecessary Rs50 /to that flower vendor with whom I only took flowers once.After thinking and making a determined effort to do away with the trait I again fall into the same grrove.Think now.Here is a list.
1)One book with music class friend.Even after reminding her she is yet to return the book.
2)One book with Ex-Office friend.
3)Three books with friend's daughter.
4)One book with friend's son.
5)Two or may be three books with nephew.
6)Two orginal C.D.'s and four other C.D.'s with net service provide who have been reminded to return them through his partner.Not yet received.
7)The carpenter has taken my slightly costly sprayer.Has not returned.
Why Am I like this?Only my God knows.Thank God Iam related to Him and He understands why Iam like this.I intend to get these things recovered though.HMmm.
A last note pertains to my deplorable habit of thinking that all my net friends are my true friends.Otherwise why should I be perturbed by my getting a message that such and such logged out(How I can get such a note when that person has been in invisible mode to me I do not know),and I think why that person did not talk to me.Anyway Iam thankful for this blogging that helps me by letting me offload these traits of mine here.Yes, It is time for me to move on,perhaps with different traits and perhaps with the way Iam.
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