A Day Of Sunshine.

Today is very hot here.I went out for some purchases as Iam going to my brother's place for ten days.The sun was stinging and by the time I reached home I was thirsty.

Iam in good mood today though.Just now was talking to someone who needs help.I think I helped by talking to him.So also Iam going tomorrow to help my sister-in-law who has her daughter delivering a baby boy.

A journey in anticipation always thrills me.


I have this habit of always thinking what dresses should I take for the journey and packing and then when really going, taking some other dresses and not the ones that I kept already.I used to analise this nature of mine.One of my friend had said that ,as Iam very much living alone anything that disturbes it is causing a ripple in my mind and so the hyperactvity.I talk also too much to people and the reason again she said is this living alone.I think that she is right.Many a time it is sort of easy for people to make me spend for them too.The priest can get money from me, the astrologer whom I visited for a friend with that friend also in tow is paid by me and not that friend.I have again and again been doing these acts of unnecessary committments and I have one day written down the reason for this trait of mine.

I feel like throwing money in drain as I feel every committment made by me when I feel sympathetic to be acted on.That was why I gave an unnecessary Rs50 /to that flower vendor with whom I only took flowers once.After thinking and making a determined effort to do away with the trait I again fall into the same grrove.Think now.Here is a list.

1) one book with music class friend.Even after reminding her she is yet to return it.
2) Another book with ex-office friend.
3)Another two books with friend's daughter.
4)One book with another friend's son.
5)Two original C.D.'s and three other C.D."s with netservice provider who is yet to return it even though I reminded him indirectly through his partner.
6)Another contemptible trait of mine is that I think the persons with whom I interact in net are my friends and when I see the message that so and so logged out(How?When the person had been in invisible mode can I get a message that says he logged out?), I think he had ignored me.

Iam really cosoled with this blog wherein I have written my not so shiny habits.Of course I have started with a sunny day though and Iam determined to get all these back to me.

Somewhere in my heart there is a hole and Iam trying to fill in with these acts ?Are they born out of my meekness and nature wanting to please or am I a fool,proving that idiom 'a fool and his money are easily parted'.

Hmm???Iam sighing, resigning myself to HIM who really knows me perhaps.Thank GOD Iam related to you.